Well isn’t life a strange oddity.
One and a half months ago I lost my home,my wife and my step kids.i was with her and the kids for eight years.married 5 years this April.the day just came and went with out even a thought of what a magical day it was back then.
Any way,so I’ve been made homeless because my wife decided to text the landlord who incidentally is a personal friend.i can’t remember what she said but the landlords reply was kick him out,if you need help just call me.now I have nothing against ppl with lots of money because they have got a good payout and in a wheel chair because of a car accident.incidentally he still drives like cxxxt up a small road that has a primary school along side.
He is what I would call some one,new money,not earnt just given to him.
He shouts his mouth of boasts about all sorts of crap.
I was even told by a friend that she over heard this guy on his phone in a shop being loud taking to some one saying I was moving out.
Bit of a shock when I had not even been chucked out then.
Any way there was a section 21 served on the house (you have two months to leave the property)but here comes the sting in the tale.
My wife can stay as long as I move out.
If I refuse to leave she also gets to leave.
Wow talk about being set up.
Just to let you all know.im not to happy living in emergency accommodation in a double room out of plastic bags with a fridge and a microwave but the land lord and land lady are nice.
It’s better than a cardboard box and I am for ever grateful that I’ve a roof over my head.
I am happy though that I was pushed out of my family home which was more toxic than nuclear waste lol.
I’m of my anti depressants.i don’t feel down.i feel content and I don’t feel lonely which I battled with for 30 yrs until I Learnt to love my self and be ok with my own space😌.
You see I’m 50 this year and I can tell you there is no way I’m going to be a divorced miserable fxck that grows old fat and wonders why life has past me so rapidly.
I’ve adult adhd,I was diagnosed at 40 which was a real help as this was the final piece to that puzzle and I could move forward and make sense of all the weird and wonderful things I had done in my life.
Since then I’ve been diagnosed with somet new every year just to add to the mix.
Lqt syndrome(erratic heart beat)just drop down dead.
Just had a new hip after asking two years ago
Due an ankle op this year
Due eye laser surgery this year
I fractured my spine when I was 18,misdiagnosed so many times.
Paranoid personality disorder
Mixed anxiety/depressive disorder
Loss of half my hearing in my left ear
Benign type tumour on my brain
Went for the snip and lost my testicles as they
Weren’t working properly and there was an increase in cancer
Three cancer scares
But do you know what I’ve not worked for 2 yrs since a car accident buggered up my hip and twisted my pelvis.
I keep going though like a bloody washing machine
This may seem like a droning old fool but I’m just tying to give some insite and a little hope for ppl that life can be done it can be fruitful.
So I’ve lost everything,I’m at the bottom of the pecking order.but who cares ?
Isn’t life for the taking
So I’m not obese but do you know what
Ive lost 14 lbs in a month.what made me happy was that yer ok I lost some weight every day but I achieved a part of a goal and in the circumstances I’ve found my self in.
Tomorrow I’m phoning up a Charity I’ve found just around the corner for some free counciling.
I’m also going to volunteer to man the switch board fir them for two hrs a day.
You see I’ve been through probably more trauma than the average person.had to balance double or triple what the average person has to balance in life.
I wanted to go to uni and study to be a psychologist but my vertigo let me down badly and also my colitis.not acceptable to go to the toilet every ten minutes.yup I managed 17 times a day for a year before the so called specialist actually took me seriously,not that he does now but hey.
So I’ve been looking at open university.that way I can still do my course from my bed if need be.
The councillors I’m going to speak to tomorrow also take volunteer councillors and could possibly point me in the direction of my new adventure.
Yup heard that before,oh I love helping ppl sane old saying.well I’ve learnt a lot about just about every eventuality trauma that I do believe I’m in a brilliant position to now help back and get properly trained.
So I didn’t know what I was gonna write tonight
Not been on here for ages and certainly don’t look for sympathy or sorrow.
So I hope you enjoyed the read I hope it made sense and I hope it may have helped a few ppl look at life in a more positive way