mental limitations. repression. supression.

[roachkid]

i think dissociation plays a bigger role in my everyday mental health than i actually acknowlege... never actually considered these symptoms of dissosiation. i normally only catch it when its completely obvious because im bad at knowing myself nevertheless believing myself. sometimes i really feel stupid or crazy when i realize the complete lack of awareness that can occur when i dissosiate. ive gone to school before and thought i somehow managed to be absent during a lesson because i had no recollection of the topic even being introduced on days i was definitely present physically. its kinda scary to realize your brain has auto deleted something subconsiously. is it repression?is it forgetfulness? am i stupid? i dont want to believe my illusion of control over my body and mind is completely absolete.

[Hidden]

Sometimes meditation improves your concentration but really it depends on how well you are and other factors like your interest in the subject. Do what you really want to do and not to force yourself too much! You are what you can manage to do and you will succeed somehow