A short message...(??? that will be a first...
) to all of my good friends on here (you know who you are), who have supported me over the last few days, when I have had an "insecurity wobble" in my new job. These "wobbles" really are quite scary but I know that I can come on here and just put my thoughts down and usually I feel a lot better once I have had a wee chat.
Today I had to sit 2 assessment exams and I felt sick to my stomach when I was given my papers but for the first one I got 80% (you have to get 80% or more to pass) and I was so happy that I passed the first one. Then there was another one in the afternoon and I got a score of 90% for that one!!
I was literally walking on air the whole way home.
I had a really good day because I relaxed and told myself that I am a smart, intelligent woman who would NOT have been able to work as a Legal Secretary for almost 15 years if I had been stupid. I have been labelling myself as "stupid" and "useless" for weeks now and today it was as if a light bulb DID actually go off in my head!! I deserve to be happy and to have this job and enjoy it and at last today I felt as though that was exactly what I was doing!!. I know there will be other parts of the training which will be difficult but at least now I DO know that I WILL get there!!..I have just proved to myself that I CAN do it. Learning something new should be fun and exciting and good not something to be terrified of!! But the support I have received (yet again) on here has been second to none!!
Thank you so much for being such good listeners, and such good friends!!
Lots of love to you all!!
Theresa
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