Hey, everybody! I'm Victoria. I'll be 20 this year.
Everything's falling apart, everything's burning. I have a very difficult family situation, my father cheats on us all the time. We don't have anything to eat, it's been like this for a few good years, but it's never been as bad as now. I'm afraid that we'll be left without a flat and money, we have a lot of debts and no one to help us, we have a loan for a flat and it's just hard. I don't have any friends (even if I can't trust them) My whole family lives under pressure.
I have terrible problems at school, I probably won't pass again..it's all because I can't focus on anything because there are problems everywhere.
I have or had a boyfriend, I met him in March 2018, 24/08/2018 we started to be together, for a few months, (year in general) it was perfect. Then something started to break down, we started arguing, breaking up with each other and coming back together like some kind of possessed person.. but I still love him, my heart breaks if I have to survive without him one day and then one month. I became terribly attached to him (it's a long-distance relationship) my mother doesn't accept it and even forbids me, even though I told her about it, she repeats that she will send me to a psychiatrist. We've been talking to each other again for some time but I felt it was completely different than before and that hurt me. ( I'm afraid to ask him about it because I know how he will react...) He tryna to be tough as always.. He said that we will talk when he finishes school but I couldn't go away like that.. then I realised that it was better to talk when we finish school. ( He doesn't want to listen to my problems because he has his own and he's stressed. ) My heart breaks and bleeds, cries every day when I think about him and other problems but nobody pays attention to it, I try to help everyone but nobody can do it for me.