When you feel like you're losing progress in your effort to be happy again, you may be in for a big surprise. Life is so unpredictable. We never know what's around the next corner. I learned that lesson for real today.
This morning, Christmas Day, I woke up to find my husband had left the house again without a word. I sent him a text just stating I noticed what he did. Again. He does that a lot. He replied he went out for breakfast. I felt truly let down. But, today wasn't the same. This time he came home with a little gift. I was speechless. That little gift helped to mend a broken heart. We haven't been speaking to each other for quite awhile. So, this was definitely one step forward.
Now, the rest of the day was a little better than what I have been accustomed to. Although, toward evening, I realized the little gift didn't heal everything, but it was definitely one step forward. I still feel alone when we're together, and still suffer with depression and anxiety. But, I believe God gives us that little glimmer of hope when we feel in total darkness and isolation. We just have to be prepared to look for it, accept it, and hold on until the darkness lifts.
I'm trying and hope you do to.