I`m 68 and 28 years ago I left a physically and mentally abusive husband of 25 years for a man I thought was kind loving and loyal. Within 3 years he had an affair with another woman and treated me like a housekeeper for him. I was only 40 and reasonably attractive but he wouldn`t come near me. I`ve begged him over the years to talk things through and try to put things right but he refused to speak to me about anything other than what`s on telly etc. If you wonder why I stayed it was because I hoped things would get better. Ispent my wages on clothes for him and foreign holidays while he kept his hand in his pocket. He now has shares Isas a large bank account and hasn`t spent one penny on our home and has never taken me out since we got together. Iasked him many times to just take me a ten minute drive out in the country on a nice day but he would only do that if I paid for the petrol. He has ground me down until I`m now almost completely agrophobic and have no self esteem at all. Yesterday, I found out he has been having an affair for months now. I found his Gmails to and from her declaring their love for one another. Ihave been on antidepressants for 26 years now but now Ijust want to die. I have no more strength left in me. This man is 72 and teaches tai chi at Bolton and Farnworth with his mistress 5 days a week and meets her on the weekends too. He denies everything even when faced with the love letters. I`m completeley alone.