I am shocked by what happened to me and after some time I am able to talk about it. I went to a party with a boy I slept with a couple of times- so our relationship could be defined as friends with benefits, as we were in fact friends but we also had sex- and a small group of boys, his friends, that I didn't know. He was gone for the whole party talking to some other girl and we got completely wasted. I was so wasted that I don't remember much but crying and screaming "I am so drunk I am so drunk" and laying on the ground. A friend from the group- so not the boy I slept with a couple of times, who by the way was there in that moment and could have stopped it- took me to his place and we had sex, even if I was unconscious most of the time, and I know this for sure because at some point he took off the condom and I would have never let this happen if I had been conscious of what was happening. The morning after I woke up with the biggest hangover but still had sex with him, took plan B and went home.
Now I found out that I have bruises on my butt, and there was a condom stuck inside me. My vagina feels like burning and I have a white thick discharge that looks like sperm, but I guess all of the sperm should at this time be out of my body. The boy admitted to have "taken advantage" of me being that drunk. I really don't remember what happened, I don't remember taking off my clothes or shoes but I can feel his weight upon me penetrating me. When I try to have intercourse with a regular partner my vagina doesn't allow me to do that, it starts burning, itching and it leaves me pain so I have to stop the penetration. I don't know what to do and I'm going crazy. I can't stop thinking about this, feeling ashamed for what happened and I'm afraid I will never enjoy sex again, as I fear I may have developed a vaginal inflammation, an infection, a STD or that maybe plan B didn't work correctly because the condom was stuck there for days. Please, somebody help me.