I feel guilty to be alive. I put out all this negative energy into the world and there are people who are happy and loved and they pass away. I don’t understand why I’ve been given this good health but I’m not able to make the most of it. I wish I was able to trade places with someone who was gone too soon. They’re the ones that make a difference in the world.
I guess I’m just not understanding the reason why I’m here. I don’t even think I’m a good person.
Do you have dreams or things that motivate you? Be nice to yourself. Be compassionate to yourself. Think of yourself! Do things that you enjoy and interest you.
I could have written this post as I often have thoughts like. Until the last 5 years or so I always had very robust health but no love so couldn't make the most of it whilst people who are much loved and want desperately to live die. They would be much more missed than me leading a half life and it seems so unfair and such a waste.
I don't have any answers I'm afraid but you are not alone. x
I feel everyone has a purpose n a reason why they r here.We may feel broken BUT we all have something to help another get through there day.U may not know what it is,but time usually time shows us.I may have tons of med issues n I'm a mess n can't do very much,but I know I can help the next person in my spot learn to get though there day .Sending a hug ur way .
hi your not alone in your thoughts here if you need me.ive been feeling the same since march 2000 your here though because its not your time and you are a good person don't let yourself think otherwise.
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