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I am in a lonely dark place and don’t want to be in this place anymore.

I joined here yesterday to reach out for support/advise/guidance. Which I hope to be able to do for others when I am out of where I am. If I ever do.

I am scared about many things and reaching out is one of them.

Got discharged from MH services and after a talk with my GP yesterday I am booked in for just under weeks time.

I’m shaking and in tears writing this post. Every part of me wanting to shut down in all ways possible.

26 Replies

Hi Suicidal85 and welcome to this caring forum. I am sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you. I have added a trigger warning to your posts in accordance with Health Unlocked community guidelines. This is because we need to highlight to other members of the community that they may not be comfortable with reading some of the content of the posts and this will alert them. We would like to help you too. Please be reassured that you are not alone. It is really positive that you have seen your GP and will see the mental health team again to discuss how you are feeling. They will be able to help and support you. The mental health team will be able to help you with some coping strategies. Many people find that it helps them to write down how they are feeling. You may wish to continue to do this and show it to the mental health staff. Please do not give up hope. You are valued and things will get better when you have received some help. Try to take small steps.

How are you feeling now? We care about you on this community and our members will try and support you as much as we can. In the meantime, if you are distressed and are in the UK, please call--

The Samaritans Freephone 116 123 [24 hour helpline] 7 days a week. They provide a listening ear.

If you live outside of the UK and are distressed, please have a look at the pinned post section of the screen which includes Free Mental Health Guides and International Crisis support helplines.

In the UK contact---

NHS 999 [emergencies]

NHS 111 [non emergencies]

Self harm information Mind.org.uk/information-sup... Tel 0300 123 3393

Also, Mind charity has advocates who are based all over the UK and are also able to provide help and support. Please see Mind website for details.

Please stay on this caring forum to receive support from other members. Are any other forum members able to support Suicidal85, please?

Take care and best wishes.

Suicidal85 in reply to MAS_Nurse

I spoke on the phone to the GP but they couldn’t do anything. I see them in just under 3 weeks time. Mental health have discharged me MAS_Nurse. I did put a TW on the post.

MAS_Nurse in reply to Suicidal85

Hi Suicidal85 and thank you for your reply and for adding a trigger warning to your post. Please stay on this caring forum where you will continue to receive support. Take care.

Pip2753 in reply to MAS_Nurse

Suicide85’s post has not been taken down I’ve just joined and I’ve found it without knowing it was there.

Suicidal85 in reply to Pip2753

What do you mean Pip2753 which post?

Hi, Did you get to see my reply to you last night before your post was taken down? I will post again the help numbers.

Mental Health Matters is a particularly good one as they have a web chat service and you are talking with mental health professionals. Their web address is mhm.org.uk/

Mind - mind.org.uk/ - Contact us 0300 123 3393 Our lines are open 9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday (except for bank holidays). info@mind.org.uk

nhs.uk/using-the-nhs/nhs-se... is the NHS CRISIS page and will help you contact your local CRISIS Team

Mental Health Helpline - 0800 107 0160

MAS_Nurse has already given you the Samaritans number. they are excellent at just listening and I have been where you are and have called them. Sometimes just being able to talk and cry without being interrupted is enough to get you through the roughest of times

Stay strong, keep safe, lets us know how you are getting on

Love and hugs

Suicidal85 in reply to Missy_D

Hi Lesley thank you for replying. I went on the mhm site and not in those areas. Will look at the mind one as well and the crisis one also. I have spoken to Samaritans before via email.

Thank you for your reply last night too. I saw you replied but couldn’t access it.

Missy_D in reply to Suicidal85

I think the web chat is for any area xxx

Suicidal85 in reply to Missy_D

When I clicked it a drop down menu asked where I was based. So did the crisis support one. Will have another look tomorrow. I did just now and said the webchat is closed for tonight.

Just hang in there a landed up in hospital for 10 days I was going mad coming off pregablin and giving me noises in my head 24 hours a day

Suicidal85 in reply to Eabxj28

How are you now Eabxj28? I tried on my own but it didn’t work. I need either change or increase.

Eabxj28 in reply to Suicidal85

Not good at moment , we’re you on 15mg mirtazaphine what did you change to. Do you get buzzing in the head or ears

Suicidal85 in reply to Eabxj28

They want to change me to mirtazipine there was talk about it but atm I am on 150mg sertraline.

I hope the buzzing in your ears subside. Have you seen anyone about this. I know how annoying it can be to have that as a symptom.

I know how it feels to want to shut down, me and others on here are here for you if you need to talk

Suicidal85 in reply to Lindsey14

It’s hard always feeling of wanting to shut down all the time. Thank you so much for your reply Lindsey14.

In awe at your profile pic.

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling have you tried doing something to take you mind off of things, such as a hobby or an interest I find that my mind wonders less and stays on focus more, it’s not a quick fix but you will find that it does help I would also like to point out that if your doing something you mind is more focused on what your doing I started to grow things fruit and vegetables and since I have have started growing my mind is more focused on that please please try to help your self you could even take up growing bonsai trees if you ever wanna chat you can message me direct ian

Hi Ian thank you so much for your reply. I am not usually this bad. But have had a bad time recently and have fallen further and further down. I usually am more comfortable going out and clearing my head, reading, TV, but this time it’s harder than it’s been in a while to get back up again.

The main thing is your not alone I had it bad myself and to be honest I wouldn’t normally comment on posts and I would direct message the person but to be fair I am here if you need to talk

I am very sorry to hear you are in such a dark place. It can't be easy for you. But reading your post i see you still think about others and wanting to help others in return when you can. That is one of the best things about this site in my opinion. Take care.

Suicidal85 in reply to 123ag

I do really want to help others when I can. Sites like these need to be given more publicity. Relieved I have found it and everyone so nice and helpful.

Hello x

I’m so sorry to here your feeling this way.

I know first hand how hard it is to live with

MH probs. I’ve had GAD PTSD for years and struggle almost daily with different fears. I’ve learnt when I’m highly anxious to ground myself instead of trying to rationalise it. Once I’m back in my window of tolerance- I can then think rationally!

Some days are easier than others and some aren’t and feel never ending! Just know that how ur feeling WILL pass! it will get easier! NEVER GIVE UP!! Use breathing techniques (google if u don’t know any), concentrate on ur body and imagine ur rooted into the flood and concentrate only on the sensations u experience in you body. Be kind to yourself! Rest and do what you need to do to get through this episode. Listen to what your body needs x x

Will have to Google some as anxiety has been sky high over the last few days. I just want out of this rut I have got myself in to. The pit seems never ending. Thank you for your reply Hannah1987 x

I’m here if u ever need to talk day or night! Just a the other end of a msg on here! You will get out of the rut u feel your in.... I promise it will feel lighter at some point in time. Time is a healer, it truly is!! X x

Thank you Hannah1987b as I am for you also. You’re words mean a lot. Things are bad again. Thought I was getting somewhere the previous few days but no. How are you? x

Hay, so sorry it’s been worse again 😢 I still have flare ups but now, the pattern has changed . Usually I have warning signs to say when I’m anxious but past few months ....none! No warning ⚠️ until I’m SUPER stressed then bam💥 hits me like a ton of bricks 🧱 now aramedics have been called twice in just few months as I swear I was having a heart attack! It’s awful BUT I’ve learnt tricks over the years that help. Some I’ve already said, others inc sitting under the shower so it feels like I’m under a waterfall with the water covering my head and ears, meditation, weighted blankets to give the feeling of safety, elastic bands around wrists which I ping hard esp when I dissociate! Drinking a pint of ice cold water every time I feel anxious and the big one which everyone loves (not) .......exercise 🏃‍♀️🏃🏻‍♂️!! It helps me no end. It helps me to feel healthy body and mind esp!! The endorphins are amazing!! Oh and distraction- distracting my mind to keep busy in other stuff then practicing self care when kids aren’t about x always here . Take care lovely . Be strong 💪🏻 💪🏻💎💎

Sorry to hear sometimes it just hits with no warning and that paramedics had to be called. I’ve always wanted to have a shower put in where I live but only have a bath. Sounds amazing having water from the shower head pouring over you. Love oceans, rivers, lakes all lovely to be near. Serene almost. I’ve used elastic bands to help with not wanting to hurt myself and can really pull back hard on them. I write poems as well as was told no one cares how you growing up so kept my words to pen and paper. Sometimes that can be triggering though. Have also bought myself a bullet journal in the hope something positive comes out of recording things rather than bad feelings all the time. Take care of you also. Thanks hun x

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