Feeling very lonely, tired and stressed today the bankruptcy is taking its toll i keep on forgetting certain things , its been a nightmare getting the finance company to collect the car phoned them on the 7th and i had to chase them up yesterday its costing a fortune with phone bills, i feel empty inside and not been out the house since Saturday,
I just want to hide myself away.
The prospect off returning to work fills me with dread as there’s going to be questions about why ive been off work and why ive been banned from driving, it was because i took a overdose and had a fit at the wheel im lucky someone was in the car to stop it i feel ashamed and I cant get the thought out of my mind i could off killed someone I really do feel like im scum.
Took five overdoses this year, im lost and feel horrible about myself for what i have done.
The crisis team just tells me to go for a walk and distract myself but im struggling to keep myself safe the temptation to just take all my pills is constant i cant keep on putting my family though me going to hospital, had 2 over night stays at the mental health unit.