Basicaly a lot of shit went down when I was a little girl and in the family we never talk about it. Everyone acts like nothing happened.
But I have been secretly struggling with memories from the past and as I am getting close to 30yrs old images keep popping into my head and I break down and cry. Also I have nightmares and wake up shouting and sweating.
The other day I made the mistake of blurting some home truths through whatsapp to my mum and I told her that Im a broken person because of my childhood, im heartbroken and my childhood was shot to shit because of the stuff that happened.
Obviously my mum got really upset and two days later she sent me a text saying she is sorry that I am still suffering.
What should I do? I want to heal my mind and not have these nightmares or feel so much resentment about the past.