This is my first post.
I'm not entirely sure where to start but i will try. I am 27 years of age. I have a full time job. For as long as i can remember i have suffered from anxiety - i remember as a child been so nervous, sickly anxious about going to new places. It wasnt until i was 21 that i got diagnosed with anxiety. I have had counselling and CBT to help which has but i am still suffering daily. I cope by taking each day as it comes really and just wingi g it!
Of late i have been having suicidal thoughts and feeling so low and hopeless. I haven't acted on my thoughts but i am so worried that one night i will. I have felt this way for a while and it comes and gos. Usually lasts a week or so at a time, during this time even the smallest of tasks like getting out of bed is such a struggle. Its not yet affected my work but i do struggle. Sometimes i just feel like crying and screaming because i dont understand why my head is like this or why am i still living.
Im at a point now where i need help. My family can see im not ok and are getting worried.
Im worried if i seek help it will affect my career as i work in education.
Can someone help or advise.
Thank you x