I'm new here and hoping to find some help that medication just hasn't given me.
I was diagnosed with depression in the 90s while in my early 40s. At first I was prescribed paxil. In approximately 2005, my doctor switched me to fluoxitine. Sometime after 2010, I was switched to bupropion. In October of 2015, I had a major depressive episode, and venlafaxine was added with the bupropion. I don't feel panic or anxiety, and I no longer have days of sadness. What I seem to suffer from now is a lack of energy and interest. The odd thing is that I have a part-time job two days a week that I enjoy. At home, however, I have very little motivation to do anything. I want to get things accomplished, but I end up lying on my bed and reading random articles on my phone. Sometimes I watch informative videos. I also work puzzles from the newspaper.
I feel really guilty because if I were told this about someone else, I would think they were just lazy. Maybe I am, but I sincerely want to get up and work on something. This could send me back into a deep depression.