I'm new here and would really appreciate some advice about how to brighten my life up. I am 28, living at home with my parents, and it just feels like my life is on hold. We moved just over a year ago from one side of the country to the other, so all my friends are 300 miles away. I have social anxiety and generalised anxiety disorder, as well as Aspergers syndrome, so I really struggle to make friends. The only people I have since gotten to know are work colleagues, and there's only a couple of them that I could class as 'close' friends.
I write (I've self-published two books on Amazon), and writing has basically become my only occupation, outside of work. I work for the council in admin; I left school at 18 with A levels but no real idea what I wanted to do. Hence, I've been stuck in admin jobs because I have no higher qualifications.
I avoid society as much as I can do, yet it makes me feel so incredibly sad that I know there's a better life out there. I never go out in the evenings or at the weekend, unless it involves my parents (how sad is that???). When I look on Facebook and see my old friends meeting their boyfriend's parents or getting engaged, it makes me wonder how that's ever going to be me.
I'm not very attractive at all; I currently have braces on my teeth (so hopefully that will be better in a few months or so). I'm going to have laser eye surgery too so I can stop wearing glasses. I'm trying to make all these cosmetic changes in the hope that people won't think I'm quite as ugly, but I'm also feeling panicky that I still won't look 'normal' and it won't have made any difference to me, confidence-wise.
My life consists of getting up, going to work, eating lunch (alone), coming home, having dinner with my parents, sitting in my bedroom for a couple of hours while I write/browse the internet, watching TV with my parents for about an hour and then going to bed. It feels like I'm just wasting my life, but I'm too nervous to make any changes. I'm never going to have these years back, and it makes me so sad to think I'm wasting them.