I'm in my third year of university and I feel like I've just been drifting through life for the past three years. I've always had issues with dark thoughts, anxiety, and sadness but I've never gotten an official diagnosis. Over the past couple months the suicidal thoughts have gotten more frequent but it almost feels as though I'm not connected to the thoughts.. if that makes sense? It's like I'm thinking about killing myself but only theoretically. I guess I'm just worried that if these thoughts continue they might become more real.