I've just turned 21. I have a 3 year old little girl. I lost my job in july, my nana was diagnosed a year ago with terminal cancer and towards the end of her life it became to much for me to deal with and I started ringing in work making excuses then i got too scared to ring in sick and ended up having to leave. I split up with my little girls dad two year ago but over the past 2-3 month we became very close again. My nana passed away on the 31st of August with just me by her side. I was fine the first few weeks then everything just seemed to go down hill about 2 weeks ago. I've always lived with my nana and grandad, but my grandad went to Cyprus the day after her funeral, so basically I'd been left alone. I was struggling to sleep in the house where all my memories with her have been where I grew up so I chose to go and stay at my other half, I found out he had been meeting other people last week but chose to forgive him if it stopped. It all got to much when I he told me he had too leave me on monday because he was in love with someone else. I broke down big time, I drank all night to the point I coukdnt walk then tried to overdose, luckily he found me as I done it and rushed me to hospital. my mam came the next morning to drop my little girl off then took her away when she seen the mess I was in. I've spent everyday in bed and I really don't know what to do. I found this site when I posted asking for help on a nhs site and a member of staff emailed me this link. I don't know if I'm supposed to feel like this one minute I'm so angry and I'm screaming, the next I'm crying then I'm laughing like it's all some joke. Youse probably just think I'm stupid but I feel like I have nobody.
Thanks for reading anyway