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[TheDoctor4242]

I know that I'm just a senior, and I don't know anything, and reading some of the other posts on here makes me realize my life isn't that bad, I just need to let this out somewhere.

I don't feel like enough. I've tried so many things to try and fix this. I've set reminders on my phone every morning to help me remember, talked to my parents, friends, counselors. Even still, I feel like a flop.

I don't know what else I can do at this point. I know that suicide is not the answer. While I've considered it, never once have I ever thought of it as an actual solution. I've always reasoned that it would hurt my friensd and family more if I were to die than muddle through this.

I've even asked friends what they do to help cheer them up. I try all their solutions but I still always feel so worthless by the end of it.

Even though things are hard, I will keep trying. I've come this far, and mama didn't raise a quitter. I just don't know what to do or even how to feel anymore

[lillyofthevalley37]

You are enough in God's eyes

But you are 17 and no doubt you.want your peers approval instead

Please don't be down on yourself you are going through a stressful time with studying and friends not being reliable , you just have to get through this you have to be a friend to yourself and not be critical you seem like a nice person to me and I don't want you to be down.

The anxiety and depression community on here is quite busy during the week if you want any more support you could post on there as well.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi TheDoctor4242,

welcome back to this community. Sorry you are feeling like this at the moment, do you have someone who you can talk to about this and perhaps can go to the Doctor with you.

lilyofthevalley37 makes a lot of sense with what she is saying to you.

Please take the time to look around your screen at the 'pinned posts' and 'topic posts. These can have invaluable info that could als0 help.

Do keep in touch with us as this is a very caring community and we would love to hear how you are getting on.

Kind regards,

MAS Nurse & Moderator

[PNIAuthor60]

You are correct, friends and family are devastated when a loved one dies by suicide.

I've learned in my own recovery that our thoughts do not always represent reality or truth.

While I don't know you, from your post alone, I can see that you are a wise person in realizing that suicide is not the answer and being concerned about the fallout on your loved ones.

You are courageously transparent in your post and instinctively realize the importance of getting these thoughts about yourself out and somewhere where others may respond with care and concern. It is a very caring community and we support each other which is a real blessing - my online communities are sanctuaries where I can truly be free to be me with all that is swirling inside and outside.

What about focusing on self-care and ministering to yourself through nutritional food, exercise, getting a good night's sleep and engaging in hobbies you may have? Do you have a group of friends that you enjoy spending time with? Do you attend a church? What do you enjoy investing your time in? Sports? Writing? Painting? Singing?

Do you journal? Sometimes when I am writing in my journal and feelings spill onto the page it helps me to see the root of these feelings or the patterns in my thoughts.

Dear sweet soul, your worth is more than you realize at this moment. No one else in the world sees things as you do and so no one else is capable of educating others about what it is to be you - what you feel, think, perceive or wish for.

I would like to recommend a tool for you - it is called This Is For You: A Creative Toolkit for Better Self-Care it may contain suggestions that would help you feel better.

I wish you well and will keep you in my prayers.

[TheDoctor4242 in reply to PNIAuthor60]

Thank you so much. This is by far the greatest advice I’ve ever received from anyone. There are some people I talk to that try to tell me that I shouldn’t feel like this at all and I have to stop, but having this community that accepts me and tells me that, while not a good thing, it’s okay o have these feelings.

I will definitely try to follow my hobbies more and go to church as much as I can

Thank you so much!!

[PNIAuthor60 in reply to TheDoctor4242]

Your welcome, feel free to stop by anytime and let us know how you're doing.

Feelings are important because they are OURS! This will also be a safe place for you to be authentically YOU! Each of us is a unique creation of God, an original masterpiece. So stand tall sweet soul that you are because there is only one of you and your value is more precious than silver or gold!

[sweetiepye]

You are a sweet soul on the beginning of your journey . You are not expected to know everything or even to know yourself like you will someday. You are a work in progress just now. So take the time to observe and process the possibilities that exists for you. Observe other people or read about what people do in their own lives. It helps you realize what is available to you. Elanor Roosevelt once said to do what it is that you fear. I took that to heart and it has served me well. It has helped me to get past many obstacles in life. That may not be what you need to hear , but you will find what you need on your journey . Take what you find useful and leave the rest for others. Safe trip Sweet Soul. Pam

[Hidden]

Does ANYONE really feel like they are enough ??? I think we all strive to be better and better ourselves. Your young and u have a huge life in front of u. Life is far but easy and can be super overwhelming. Plus u are on this community with all of us... so obviously ur trying to help yourself.Everyone hear always has a ear to listen and shoulder to cry on.Read posts.. message people u think would be good to chat with.Its always good to have a friend that understands what u r going through. Wish u the best.

[TheDoctor4242 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much. It’s amazing to have a community that’s so open and helping