Physically and mentally sick due to severe depressive episode

[Cat_cat44]

Yes, exactly what it says. I can’t sleep or I oversleep all day. I’m eating bad foods, I get up, get my daughter ready for school, take her then come back home and sleep until it’s time to pick her up. Then sleep again/ nap with her. This is haven’t been me for a long time. It’s due to a lot of recent failures and rejections. I try to trust God but I realized something. Everytime He blessed me with something, it either doesn’t last or turns out bad. So now I got nothing to believe and trust in.

[Jjlinx]

I’m sorry to hear you’re having such a hard time but I still think you’re doing so well to be able to do what your daughter needs for school & pick her up every day. That is not easy when you’re going through depression & you really should commend yourself for that. My last bad episode left me questioning my faith too but I know I still believe really, it’s just exasperating when we’re going through such hard times & we don’t know why. The depression will lift eventually, every day you get up, shower, get dressed, take any meds & do what your daughter needs you’ve done amazingly well.

[hypercat54]

I agree with Jjlinx and you are doing very well even though you don't think so. I think you are still licking your wounds from the recent hard incidents in your life and there is nothing wrong with this. Sometimes all we can do is just to hold on and desperately try and survive.

When you feel depressed it is very important to still keep on doing a few things (but only a few) otherwise you end up very isolated which doesn't help you or anyone else. Even if you have to force yourself and you don't enjoy it you need to try and try.

Re your faith have you tried talking to your local vicar or anything? This might help. I don't follow a faith and I find I believe in myself and others instead - might this help you? x

[Faithfull]

I am going threw exactly the same just as you think your getting there another blow .

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi where_is_normal and welcome to the forum. As hypercat54 and Jjlinx have posted, you are doing very well with caring for your daughter and attending to her needs. This is not easy when you are feeling depressed and I am sorry to hear about your recent negative experiences. It may be a good idea to arrange an appointment to see your GP to discuss how you are feeling, so you can receive more help and support to deal with this. Perhaps some counselling may help? Your GP will be able to arrange this. You may also find the pinned posts on the screen helpful and please stay on this caring forum where you will be supported by other members. Thank you and best wishes.

[Cat_cat44 in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Thank you MAS_Nurse. I’ve been having a standing appointment with a social worker for the last Thursday’s until I can get another therapist. I’ve been dealing with all of this since I was a teen. I’ve notice as I’m getting older it’s not getting any better. I’ve been on every med, etc. I just don’t know. I did make a little progress this morning. I haven’t went back in my bed since taking my daughter to school. Gonna make some calls to my Psych and see if I can get therapy there as well.

[MAS_Nurse in reply to Cat_cat44]

Hi where_is_normal, and thank you for your reply. Well done! This sounds like a good plan. Take small steps and you will get there. Remember, you are not alone. Please let us know how you are getting on. Best wishes.

[Cat_cat44 in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Hi MAS_Nurse, thanks for your concern. Because the pmdd hormone wave has passed I’m feeling a little better and I decided to drink more water, mainly mostly water to see if that helps. I’m not a water person but I’m desperate for this suffering to lessen. I’m thankful for this site that y’all praise our little steps and no one judges how we feel. I spoke with my Psychiatrist and she placed a referral for me to began therapy again. For now I will continue to see the social worker. I will keep you posted thanks again!

[charlieab]

Hi

I know its hard but I think getting into a healthy life style is really important. As well as helping mood, it helps ensure that you dont add physical health problems to the mental health ones.

I understand the belief problem as well. I began to think about God when I became ill but am finding it hard to believe atm, as I think how can there be a benign god who lets folk get more and more ill. But maybe its just that I dont understand what it all means.

best wishes

R

[Cat_cat44 in reply to charlieab]

Hi Charlieab thank you for your kind words. Yes it’s super hard when this wave of pmdd hits. I get one good week a month then the anxiety and depression worsens. I decided to drink more water, hope that helps, I’m desperate.