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When the bubble bursts

Just because i am different , people/family/friends treat me like i have the plague...they stay as far as they can away from me, scared of catching my germs ..its like being bullied only difference is i am an adult...but they still have something to say not positive.. i think that normies (people who dont suffer from mental health) are living in a bubble if they dont have any issues no one else should.. people should evolve in their thinking and understand mental health is increasing but all doctors can do is up your medication..its easier to increase your meds and make u sit in your house medicated like a vegetable so that u dont become a menace to society .i think people learn how to do cpr they should also learn to see early signs when someone has mental health. Could save a life, Especially when they are young ..i.e. puberty to teenagers..those are the hardest times..having to deal with growing up and a world of new emotions and feelings..i have also noticed that people would take my kindness for your weakness..since i have suffered from a young age , i have become more militant and receleant to peoples negativity ( but it still hurts me alot ) i dont need it got alot of negativity already...i have asked for help but it is like if a tree falls in the forest does it make a noise..u are not there to hear it fall ..but it falls..because i was not there to hear it fall does not mean it makes noise..it is 4.11am in morning i am constantly bursting into tears finding it hard to write this feel full up with emotion and dispair ..trying to find strength so i dont hurt my self or others... i have alot to live for but these constant feelings ,i am scared one day wont have strength to fight it...and it takes me away..why am i just crying all the time ...i feel like that tree..if i fall will anybody hear me. I guess i have to wait and see thats all i can do...i am quit a strong man but these thoughts and feelings are getting better of me...i hope god hears my prays and sends angels to guide me ..only god can help me now....

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Hi GOM I feel your pain but I also want to say something quite strong to you but am not sure you would be able to take it or it would help you. Not sure about it so will leave it for now. x

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I am a big boy...say what u are saying

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Ok but if it isn't relevant or it doesn't help let me know and I will delete it.

Now this is what I think. The general public and especially family often don't understand or want to understand mental health problems. That is unfortunately the way it is and you can't force them too. You have enough to deal with without taking on the world. You can only accept that's life. I know it's not fair and it's not right but who said life was?

The best way to deal with it is not to keep trying to talk to those who can't understand as it will only get you upset and wound up. Speak to those who do, your doctor/counsellor and us on sites like this.

From what you say it sounds like you are quite aggressive. I am not saying you don't have reason for this but it will never endear you to others and they will avoid you 'like the plague'. Aggression doesn't form part of most mental health issues by itself but frustration can cause it and I think it could be causing yours.

You need to chill out with people a lot more and keep a very strong reign on your temper. It's not helping you or attracting good people in your life.

Ok said it. I am trying to help but not sure how you will react to this. Like I said I will delete it if you want me to. I do wish you the best though. x

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I welcome your feed back...i was abused when i was 9/10 by a family member..after that i lead a violent past ..no one understands my pain it runs deep...yes i can be aggressive but i stay away from people i used to hang around with..my mental health has combined with my agression and evolved into a uncontrolable urge to control my whole being..i am a good guy with a bad past..its me against the world...dont let any close any more..i have been thrown out of a few mental health clinics and hospitals. Its been like this since i was young..i am a good guy though and keep my self to my self...best way..

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I was being totally honest in my reply and I hope it did help a bit.

It sounds like you haven't dealt properly with the abuse you suffered and your violent past. Are you saying you have now given up trying to help yourself and prefer to isolate yourself?

Deciding it's you against the world isn't a healthy or desirable way to live but it is your choice at the end of the day. One of my sisters lives like this but is very unhappy and is in denial. One of her problems is refusing to take responsibility for herself - is this one of yours? Not trying to criticise but only to understand.

It seems to be the key to changing your life (if you want to change it) is to learn to control your temper. How about seeking anger counselling? This could be a first step.

I am not surprised you are so angry and will never judge you on that but at the end of the day it isn't helpful to you is it? Do you want to change this? x

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Everyday...i know it is not helping...i have asked for help but i am alot better by myself...dont trust people i got hurt before when i was young not any more...i am scared what i am becoming and i cry everyday ..it helps when i can talk about it without people knowing my i.d.

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Things won't change until you make them G I'm afraid. I know you have been hurt in the past and I appreciate how you feel but you have to start trusting again to get the help you need.

You can stay by yourself or you can start trying to heal. This won't be easy or quick but I do believe it's very worthwhile. You might have many years left to live yet after all....

Keep talking to us on here and we will help and support you all we can. x

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Thankyou...i hope people read this and can relate to my story..if i can help i will..their are people who are may be going through same issues..i cant be an isolated case..i will though take your advice and seek councilling for my temper..i am in process of getting assessed by mental health unit..thank you for taking time out to respond to my story.2018 has got to be better than 2017...and i am still here ..i want to be normal so bad its killing me..

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I appreciate your honest responses to my reply and you have gone up a lot in my estimation!

To heal you have to think of what is best for you and what will serve your interests the most. One of these is keeping your temper under control.

Another is not to worry about being Mr Nice Guy. Just be yourself but in a socially acceptable way. If you need to learn this then set yourself out to do it.

My sister who thinks it is her against the world does not wash properly and always looks unkempt and dirty. When she gets negative reactions from other she is convinced it is because she is 'fat' and 'ugly', She can't be told, nor can she understand, that is it because she is breaking one of society's unwritten rules with her lack of hygiene. Others avoid people like this.

I could tell her but she would shout and scream at me for ages and I don't need that aggro so I avoid the situation. So do my other sisters.

Now I am not saying for a moment that you are dirty or anything but I think you get the analogy. x

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I understand...its been so long since i have laughed or smiled..i will take a hint though and make a effort...but on the other hand it may be i aint meet some one worthy of my attention yet...dont get me wrong its not because i am ugly i am quite cute i can get woman just not in this mode..

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Well I would concentrate on learning or relearning to get along with others first before trying to get a woman! x

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Learn your talents and master them. Get to know what makes u tick! Everyone has something to offer. We are sensitive souls and will get there if we admit our shit n move forward

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You really are brave admitting this x Educate them on your condition or mental health in general. Or get someone that can speak to them profission ally. Never hurt yourself or others & seek immediate advice. Don't be too haRd on them. We were all like that only when we get illnesses we change x stay Strong beautiful

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Thank you for kind words...

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This may seem a somewhat abstract analogy, but in some people, I see the same reaction toward mental health issues as I do homelessness: they don’t think it will ever happen to them so they don’t take the time to understand or empathise with it.

Of course the [sad] truth is both can happen at anytime, and to anyone.

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The higher they are ,the harder they fall...u are right if u have not lived it, it is hard to comprehend ...but at least open your mind to peoples situations good or bad.. every coin has 2 sides....cant go through life with blinkers on..

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When it comes down to it :WE ARE ALL WE HAVE GOT. If we don't help ourselves no one else will. Maybe a support worker or tablet can help us but ultimately God or energy source is the only way to get lifted. I'm work in on it😊

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This is a crazy world we live in. I think it's about getting the courage within u to remind yourself why your here and that u deserve a place here without feel in like you do. This maybe a temporary thing n not last. I'm trying my best justnow to appreciate the good I have in me cuz it's the good that will MAKE ME.

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