I feel like im already dead,but i am somehow still breathing, Maybe underwater..? i honestly dont understand how this can hurt as much as it does, i have been through so much already but yet im still being thrown more s*** everyday, i want to give up so bad. everyone i try to get close to leaves me, i have tried so many times to have a lasting relationship..but no it never works out i always push people away because of my past and whats happened to me, i have PTSD,RAD, depression,anxiety and mood disorders. i mean i am completely ***** up because all the trauma that happened before i was adopted. I mean what is the point anymore like honestly.?