I have no idea why I can't just leave my boyfriend, I just don't want to. I even moved away for almost a year to try and forget him and then just came straight back to him. I think he is like brainwashing me or something. He's told me things are my fault i'm a slag I'm a liar. I'm not as good as his ex or even as good as one of his female "friends" that he sent messages to telling her how much he cares about her and want's to take her clothes off. I didn't even mention that. Icing on the cake started a fight with my father. and then It's my fault im insecure and I should get help and change because it isn't fair on him?! I require the least amount of effort for a girlfriend ever in history. I do anything he says. If I even start a conversation he doesn't feel like having he will just brush it off and say "Boring" I'm not saying I didn't need help before he came along but I need it even more so now. Why have I always had boyfriends be nasty to me? It can't be normal? I know how it will end already. He will find an excuse to leave me maybe I'm never happy/ I don't have enough energy/Im a liar/He doesn't trust me - Basically anything that deems me not good enough for him. He does all this in such a way I honestly believe it might be me that is the problem and I have a strange perception on things. Honestly this man will be the death of me. He is destroying everything but I don't want to leave him.