Hi I'm just feeling really low and upset. I always tend to have these moods which have being going on for a couple of years and I just don't want to feel like this anymore. I know the reasons for my low moods and upset is my mom passing away even though It's been 8 years Its the only person I was close to and I'm not close to anyone else in the family. I don't have anyone to talk to about my problems or just everyday chit chat as I'm not close to anyone and have distanced myself from others which has resulted in me having social anxiety as I get nervous around people / groups as I believe all eyes are on me. I sometimes don't talk to someone unless the other petson taljs to me first ( it sounds really silly). I feel like I haven't achieved what I want or I'm at a place in my life where I feel happy I just feel drained, emotional upset and sad. I've had counselling in the past but I still feel the same way I do. All I want to do is feel better about myself.