Depression is the absolute worse...

[mts30]

Hello there. So as you can probably tell I have Severe Depression and an Anxiety Disorder. I’ve been diagnosed with them for 2 years but my psychiatrist says I have had them for a longer period of time. My first year with since diagnosis was a really impactful year. I was in the worst state possible back then and I needed to be at my best because it was a critical stage in my life where I needed to perform well academically to be able to return to the UK. (I used to live in the UAE before but I was born in Liverpool) Thankfully my psychiatrist prescribed me an antidepressant and a mood stabiliser that worked perfectly with me and after a couple of months I was capable of performing academically again and I managed to pass the academic year. However upon my return to home I had the misfortune of discovering the antidepressant that I used to take in the UAE was not available for treatment in the UK. That led to my mental health sliding backwards again and it has led me to having to take a year out of university whilst I see a psychiatrist and get stabilised again. I hate how my depression impacts all aspects of my life. Thanks to it, I feel lonely all the time, I can’t perform academically, I feel horrible all the time, I feel suicidal a lot of the time, I feel insecure about myself and my body image, I just hate myself. I wish things could just get better but it really doesn’t look like it. Anyway I probably wasted your time but if you read this far, thanks, it really means a lot.

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Dear, it's never a waste of time. U are worth it. I understand how hard that is I have stupid depression and anxiety too. I'm glad u posted. It's a horrible feeling. The loneliness, oh lord I know it. Remember u r still a good person even though u have this illness. U r still a worthwhile human being. I know how it can suck you in so you combat it with the fact you are more than your illness. I hope this helps. There are many of us that go through it so I hope it also helps to know you are not alone. Take care.

[tofler]

You didn't waste anybody's time! Depression and anxiety are horrible conditions to deal with and are very isolating. It must be very frustrating that a medication that worked well for you in UAE isn't available in the UK! What's your current situation, are you still on your year out from university because of your mental health?