Hi everyone

[xxapxxx]

Hi im new here, first time on this site. I have been suffering from depression for 9 years since i was in a physically abusive relationship when i was 17, i am out of this relationship now and have been for several years but i feel worse than ever all i want is to feel normal and care about myself and others and to feel actually happy for once in my adult life. I dont know how to overcome this darkness.

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I hope someone comes along very soon with some words of support for you. I send you my best wishes in the mean time !

[xxapxxx in reply to Hidden]

Thank you paul

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi xxapxxx, welcome to this community. I am so pleased you are now out of that damaging relationship but it has left behind scars that take time to heal and need help to do so. There is a lot of information here in the Topic and Pinned posts that could be helpful to you. Have you spoken with your health professionals about all these issues may I ask? It is good to talk, and you are among friends here.

[xxapxxx in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Hi thanks your your reply I was having a bad day yesterday and felt especially low. Ive spoke to my gp who gave me antidepressants but I was looking for counselling abd there doesn't seem to be anything in my area and now I'm at a loss as of what to do next.

[Hope02]

You can overcome it. You can kick it where it hurts. The first step is to have confidence in yourself. Have you talked to anyone else about it? A GP, someone who knows what they're talking about, unlike me for example. I just hope I can give you some motivation and good thoughts! Treat you and your depression as two separate people, a battle that you MUST win. What makes you even the slightest bit happy? Stupid question, I know. Does anything give you that buzz, if not, find it. Sport, theatre anything! But don't expect yourself to be out of the darkness in a flash. Reward yourself on the gradual steps that you make.

Good luck!!!!