Hi

[Ghostonmars]

I was abused when i was 9...had mental health issues since..use to throw my self against doors or walls because i thought it was my fault i am 47 now ..cant have a relationship ..exluded my self from people..

[Stilltrying_]

Well at least you've made the step of communicating on here. Sounds like your past has impacted you very negatively. Have you ever had the chance to open up to anyone about this? Do you get mental health support?

Gemma X

[Ghostonmars in reply to Stilltrying_]

I have been thrown out of mental health clinics hospitals. because of there lack of understanding they think i am violent angry but dont get that i just need help...i have no support. I have to attend assesment in jan..to get full support from esa..but that is making me anxious and nervous

[Cara78]

I'm 39 and cannot have relationships. I'm getting counselling just now. I was emotionally abused since I was very young. My mum has a touch of something mentally too so for me it's about me trying to understand that she didn't mean it. My dad was handy with his hands whilst we were young and had a very bad temper.i am trying to put it all in the past so I can move forward. I used to wander the streets and look in people's windows n wish I was them when I was really young. My mum n dad tried their best but it still haunts me.

[Ghostonmars in reply to Cara78]

I was abused by family member at young age....it really (fucked me up) i am 47 i find it hard to have a relationship..cant hold a job down. Was homeless for 2 years tried overdosing tablets and booze....but i am still here.. a burden or blessing.

[Cara78 in reply to Ghostonmars]

It's a blessing if we try and move on and get the right therapies to help us. There is some extremely successful people in this world that had the most difficult pasts.😊😙

[Cara78 in reply to Ghostonmars]

Booze nearly killed me. Drank for a VERY long time ended up on drugs n the rest that goes with it but I'm free of that now and have to deal with me even after 6 years of being drug free I still struggle with past issues. I took an overdose as a cry for help. We are still here for a reason and it's not to be abused. I'm gony take all the help that I can get. So far it seems therapy is making it worse but I see it as a big zit that has burst when the tears come out.😊

[Ghostonmars in reply to Cara78]

U sound like a strong person who has been through alot...and the good thing is u are still here .i know life is tough but as long as we can talk about our experiences we are not alone...

[Ghostonmars in reply to Cara78]

How are u feeling today..good i hope..

[Cara78 in reply to Ghostonmars]

Hiya😊to be honest I'm really done in lol. Nipped out to shop n av came back exhausted😪I sat up all nigh

[Cara78]

How are u today😊

[Ghostonmars]

I am ok thank you.a nice cup of tea and put your feet up .. i am on 45g mitizpane it helps me sleep for a good 10 hours ....when i take it...at least u are in doors now safe and warm....did u get everything u needed from shops..

[Ghostonmars]

Thank you...