It's after ten and I'm laying down eating, after a long day of being in the hospital with my parents. Now let me rewind back to around 11 a.m. this morning I went to the clinic for a scheduled checkup. As me and the Dr begin to talk about my health and personal life. While we spoke I started to feel anxious and down, because of what we talked about concerning my health. So anyways she got to the physical part of the check up and let's just say it wasn't pleasant at all, quite painful actually. This added on to my anxiety now mind you the night before tonight I had a panic attack in my room, in which I woke up out of a nightmare. Yeah so I left the clinic, with a grim look on my face, feeling awful I had downtown to run a few errands now as I'm doing my errands I'm feeling worse and worse, but I put on a mask of sorts to hide how I felt. Meanwhile inside of my I'm furious and fearful because of the Dr appointment and because I was low on cash. By the time I got to my mom's job and my dad picked me up to drop me home I've had it! When I got home I locked my door and cried out loudly, screaming, breaking up things and, hollering suicide! My family members broke my door open and tried to console me, but I was so hysterical and irrational I lashed out. They called the ambulance and I ran as fast as possible because I was paranoid. My family members finally calmed me down enough so the ambulance could take me away. As we got to the hospital I'm still freaking out, angry, paranoid and depressed. My parents reached and tried to comfort me, but to no avail. The nurses put me in a room and me and my folks waited for hours to get serve. Finally around 8 I seen the Dr and she was very nice and helpful to me which made me feel a little bit better. They gave me a routine screening, but by this time my nervous breakdown had stopped, so I was semi functional. They wanted to admit me but I declined because that'll only awakened my fears! As I've stayed in the mental ward before and I haded it. So now I'm home still feeling down, but much better than before. What are your remedies for being pushed over the edge? What initially causes one to have a breakdown?
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