As long as I can remmber ive been struggling with all sorts of mentall problems that I shouldn't have as I was so young. No one looked at what I was doing as a symptom but as a kids thing.. my parents didnt realise what what going so i didnt say I was so afraid to talk. It started when I was 6 it keeps going and coming back its gets me to a lower point each time its like a numb wave... now before I go any further with this I have to say the reason I was molested throughout 5 years from age 6-11 No one to this day knows because i feel like it's been so long why should I even cause any drama about it im 16 now I just wanted to write this to clear my mind for a whille as I dont have any one to talk to about this when im triggered and have a mental breakdown. Not a mental break down like that its more like iam empty and sleeping is just worthless and waking up is like iam upside down. I m more than sure I have ptsd from my childhood trauma as well bpd I can play anything off but once iam alone everything is upside again and the circle repeats its self over and over again .
MY only question is how does happen that no one can realise that a child is hurting? Am I even really I'll? I need an answer please
Do u ever have night mares or triggers about the events from the abuse?
Yes sometimes but I wake up from nightmares and un able to fall back asleep usually when I wake up from them I have this loud banging noise in my head for a whille i dont know why
I’m so sorry you’re going through this
I have anxiety disorder and insomnia. I used to have suicidal thoughts all the time before I started treatment. Sounds like ptsd but could be anxiety. Do u hear voices?
The thing is that I sometimes I do have people saying things but I think it's more of my instincts talking but when they get really loud I get really angry and breakdown. But as I said I really do think it's just me talking to myself but there are multiple voices. Also iam so sorry you suffer from anxiety I really am and i know how bad it is 😞