its been a while since i last posted on here, ive suffered with depression and anxiety since i was a teenager never feeling good enough or lovable for anyone and its affected my life massively cost me a few relationships and held me back in life.
i recently spoke to someone about cognitive behavioral therapy since my last update and its helped me a lot, i thought id try and share what i learnt with members to try and help a few people.
i started planning my week filling it with small tasks everyday and forcing myself to do these as its the only way id get better, like just going to the gym, seeing a friend, seeing family, cleaning the house, attempting a new recipe and doing the activities i enjoy, instead of sitting in and over thinking.
i gradually started planning my week with bigger tasks like, going to boxercise, messaging old friends to meet up (which is a big thing as i thought they didnt care), doing a 5km run, going to the cinema and meeting new people off facebook.
just today ive got back from berlin a place ive always wanted to visit, but put off visiting as my anxiety made me worry about every little detail, but after pushing myself with bigger and bigger tasks i booked it and spent 2 nights on my own and i really enjoyed it, something i never thought i could do book a holiday and travel abroad on my own, if it wasnt for cognitive behavioral therapy i wouldnt of gone!
i still have my bad days where i dont want to get out of bed and feel crap about myself, but i know i can get through them by challenging the way i think and telling myself positive thoughts, i do deserve to be happy, i do deserve the best life i can, i do deserve to be loved and not let my problems ruin my life.
quite a few people have said they notice a change in me and i have a lot of better days than bad days now. my relationship with family and friends has improved too.
hope this maybe helps someone, if i can you can!