**Trigger warning** I need to talk to someone.

[Phoenix969]

Hello everyone.

I've recently moved to another country to study for university and be closer to my family. In the end, I didn't get the grades I needed to get into a university so I'll stay here and work and study for one year and get into a uni next year.

My boyfriend is living the dream. He's in uni, has plenty of friends (most of them are girls) and a perfect life. Well, almost perfect, because I'm in it.

I've been feeling very depressed for almost two weeks now. It's getting worse, I started cutting again (I'm trying to stop because I know it's wrong, I'm doing well thank you.)

So my boyfriend is aware of what's going on and he "understands". He's my only friend at the moment.And yet he never makes time for me anymore. He spends all of his time with his friends. IF we manage to talk on the phone, he usually doesn't have more than 30 mins of time for me. His uni programm, also, is not that difficult since he's only attending lessons two days a week.

He says he cares about me and yet I'm having a mental breakdown the last few days and he doesn't make time for me. He only makes time for his friends. He prefers them.

I'm trying to think what to do to improve MY situation. I'm planning on seeing a psychologist. But I'm very lonely. And I know that even if I go back to my country for this year, I'll still be lonely.

Does anyone want to talk? ❤

[Lynseyhot]

I am here for you need talk

[hypercat54]

You should never put any private details on a public board like this, especially on an unlocked post as this could appear anywhere on the net.

If you want to leave things like this then do it under private message. To do this just click on the persons name. x

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi there,

I support hypercat's warning that you are putting yourself at risk by sharing personal contact details on a public forum. It can be copied and reshared outside the confines of Health Unlocked. It is much safer to do this through the private message facility.

MAS Nurse

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi Phoenix,

I'm not sure if this is your first post, even though you joined the community a while ago. If so, welcome to our community. As you have begun to see, folks here really care and are very willing to come alongside one another. Do remember that this is an anonymous, online forum and, we take seriously everything you say and that the advice shared comes from well-meaning shared experiences, but is not a substitute for professional medical advice. You sound is a very vulnerable place right now. If you have started self-harming, then you really do need to get urgent help and support from qualified mental health professionals.

Please review our Community Guidelines and Terms & Conditions (see Pinned Posts section) to help you think about the content and impact of your future posts. It is helpful for any future posts where you may be considering self-harm that you add to your post title **Trigger warning**, which I will now add to your post heading for you on this occasion. We use this prefix in order to warn and respect other users that the content may cause some folks here who like you are in a vulnerable place, to avoid your post.

Do check out our Pinned Posts section at our free mental health guides, but also our international crisis support helplines: healthunlocked.com/mental-h...

Please stay safe and keep in touch, we care about you and want to the best for you.

MAS Nurse