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Hi guys hope everyones ok I'm really not feeling too good tnight x

[Satsuma]

Wanna chat ? Amma bit iffy too but we can chatter and let it all out .. Better out than in

[Hidden in reply to Satsuma]

Hi satsuma read my first post I put up a few days ago, think now I'm hitting the biggest low in years, I can feel it

[Satsuma in reply to Hidden]

A lot has been happening .. A major change .. You will feel it big time. Where are you living now ? Can you telephone your ex to make arrangements to see your children ?

[Hidden in reply to Satsuma]

I'm living wth parents, who have said they wuld rather me be with them than me living on my own, and me and ex get on really gd as friends she works s oi do see the kids a good few times a weeks, but I have the youngest ones bday coming soon and also xmas omg please dnt mention xmas I'm really not looking forward to this year, it will be the first xmas in 20 years single x why is life so dam cruel, how can something invisible run and ruin our lives..

[Satsuma in reply to Hidden]

I dislike Xmas .. It ruins our lives as it is an invisible illness but we have to control it .. I am 48 and been suffering all my life. I was diagnosed at 15 .. I been through some rough times. Like you I have tried many, many tablets all to no avail. Now I realise only I can control it and not let it bring me.down. Hard work I know .. It not easy. I should change my name to Zebedee as I am up and down .. I have cyclothymia and BPD .. Aaggghhhh Music is a good mood enhancer you know

[Hidden]

12 years ive suffered,ive been on dozens of tablets some have worked sme have made me worse, ((apologies for any mispelings by the way my laptop keyboard is on its way out,)) I absolutlely love music especially jean Michel jarre

[Satsuma in reply to Hidden]

Jmj is an awesome artist .. Music is food for the soul .. Takes us away for a while into a cocoon but then the coffee aroma penetrates and reality sets in again