Feeling alone and vunerable, scared of my thoughts , CBT is hard its also been cancelled this week , that don`t help at all .
The pain seems never to cease but I just keep taking the meds. Long days till my hubby and son home from work , missing my daughter whos away at University.
All I do is cry and think bad thoughts atm just want it to go away .
Hi you dont say what your thoughts are and what started you feeling this way, was it because your daughter went to University. Have you any friends to see or something to take your mind off these thoughts? Sorry lots of questions?
Sorry ...Physical skelotial problems , Epilepsy , Anxiety & diagnosed depression . Physical problems deteriating over last 10yrs . Had Mental heath team intervention over last 7 yrs underlined cause is the Epilepsy , went 4 years of being able to deal and cope but over last 2 mental heath raised its head again . Have self harmed 3 times since doing CBT after a good 5 yrs of not doing feel like I`m going backwards . Don`t go out without anyone thats if I am feeling ok enough . Just on a downer finding CBT hard and hard going as it means focusing on me , its been cancelled this week part of me breathes a sigh of relief but I need them . I can`t do this without them I realise this now . 
Hi no wonder you feel the way you do. Having a long term condition can cause depression. And CBT doesnt work for everyone. There are other kinds of therapies but most likely not funded by NHS so you would have to pay. Question is whether you can afford it but perhaps make some economies elsewhere so you can? Sorry im no expert far from it but am told you need to try and get out every day, do something you enjoy, meet a friend for a coffee. I know this is probably the last thing you want to do. I didnt realise there were so many of us suffering from depression so if thats some consolation, you re not alone. I do feel your pain xx
Thank you
I am also struggling with anxiety and depression.
It keeps me isolated from others and makes it hard to share my fears with mu wife and cope with a teenager.
I just want it to go away too.
I find CBT hard too. But use the bits I find useful.
Relaxing doing the breathing and exercises to calm my thinking helps but i find further thinking about my issues and trying to deal with them makes things worse.
I try to do the mindfulness bit then label the emotions I am feeling to distance them them stop and do something else to distract myself from further thinking.
My garage is quite tidy now, the garden is better and the dog gets lots of walks.
You have been through tough times before and say you were able to cope.
Hang onto that and try what worked for you then if you can.
When I am in a better frame of mind I recall the good bits that have happened both recently and in earlier times 10 years back or more.
I a m trying CBT, exercise, keeping in touch with just a couple of friends that I can share with and I try to find out more about this illness that I have.
Ruby Wax's book "Taming the mind" is an ok read
Sharing here helps too
You are not on your own in this.
I have found great support on this site by sharing with others and offering support when I can.
Take care
Dave
Well said Dave. Theres no quick easy solution, just minor changes, its hard. 🙂
Yes, hard but easier with support like contacts here and therapists and counsellors. I went back to bed for at least 5 hours yesterday after a minor comment from my wife. Felt better afterwards.
Missing the counseling sessions that finished two weeks ago but trying to persist with practicing techniques.
CBT helped but now trying ACT. It doesn't make me focus on my negative thinking as much and encourages managing the uncomfortable feelings and emotions with small steps.
Its all helping.
Dave you ve got to keep trying havent you? You can get all the help and support but its only yourself that can make changes at the end of the day.
any ACT links plz
My CBT counsellor pointed me at this after about 4 sessions with 'standard' CBT.
I was struggling with CBT because because excessive thinking and rumination is my big issue. I can easily turn a small negative into a catastrophic spiral.
ACT seems to help. I know that continued thinking will just make it worse so I have to tolerate the negative stuff and move on a bit.
ACT uses CBT in a different way.
Link below.
actmindfully.com.au/upimage...
I have not gone for any books yet but Russ Harris seems to be a good one to follow.
Australia seems to have a lot of good stuff about on mental health.
I feel guilty for being alive
**Trigger Warning** Feeling suicidal 
the site feels different
Feeling down and like a failure
