I should be cleaning/tidying my house but all I want to do is vegetate on the sofa or go back to bed. In January this year I suddenly got a pain in my r eye. Didn't think much about it but went to a walk in centre just to make sure it was ok. Well it wasn't. I have had about 15 lots of laser surgeries quite a few injections into the eye and 1 operation under general anaesthetic (10 days ago). I've got to go back to hospital tomorrow for another injection in my eye.
I currently have no sight in my r eye. During the op they placed a tube in my eye which in a few weeks they will open up. I hate myself as I am such a quiet person who tends to accept what people in authority tell they want me to do. I was due to have the op on 31 July. At that time I had fairly ok vision, blurry but wearing my glasses I could see most things. However the hospital cancelled the operation to the 28 August. During that month I lost about 50% of the vision I had.
At the same time I had an infection in my l toe which they were treating with antibiotics (the wrong sort!) The toe would improve, but moment the tablets were stopped it would flare up again. I went to my local chemist on the 3rd August to find a new prescription for antibiotics, which I wasn't aware had been prescribed. To top it all they were penicillin-which I'm allergic to so the pharmacist took them back. I only found out the next week what the antibiotics were for. I had to take them for 2 weeks which meant that I would still be taking them on the day of the operation.
The hospital then cancelled the op and gave me a new date 25/9. I knew my eye wasn't feeling good. On the 27/8 the hospital podiatrist said the toe was healed and the infection had gone. I decided to then head to the eye dept who informed me there was no room for me to have the op the next day. A nurse went and fetched the consultant who said there was no way I could have the op as the infection was still an issue. He couldn't see why I was making a fuss as I had been given a new date in September. After telling him for the 3rd time that my eye was getting worse he measured the pressure. It was sky high. Within a blink of an eye He had cancelled someone else's op and I was admitted as an emergency.
A junior doctor talked to me and informed me that they were going to place a tube in my eye. The operation wasn't to restore my sight, but to save my eye. Well I still have no sight and the constant headaches are really getting to me. If I had made more of a fuss in July would I have had more eyesight? I know it's a question that can never be answered. This whole experience has made me even more depressed. The headaches, the pain of the tube and the 11 eye drops a day are just getting too much. I know only time will tell if I get any sight back. I just don't know if I can survive this. I'm so devastated.