My boy was put down this morning, the vet and we thought it was time. I stood with my hand on him while he was given the injection, it was so much quicker than i thought it was going to be, when he went i just left the room and cried in the waiting room.
I think i need to go back to work. i cant sit in the house where i have so many memories of him, his fur is still everywhere, im sat on my bed where we would lie for hours and keep each other warm. i can hear my mum crying....i cant stand it. i never want to have to be in this house again.
Im going back to work then im going the gym and im going to stay there till i collapse from exhaustion.
cannot believe my blue eyed boy is gone after 18 years, i dont no if it will ever sink in. even now i keep expecting him to come through my door to mither me and be loud and noisy.
Love you always, thank you for all the happiness and love you have given me my beautiful Tosca xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Hi Zoe
I am so sorry he had to be put to sleep. We had that done to several of our cats and it is very distressing to lose them but it does not hurt, is quick and painless for them and he is no longer suffering. You will miss him I know. Will you get another one? We always have at least two so that if one dies we still have one to love and then begin to look for another one, they are such lovely company. Yes, you will miss the noise, I remember when our last Siamese died we found it strangely quiet, but now we are used to Burmese and they seldom cry. It's sad that you feel you don't want to be where he lived with you, because by being there you have your memories and in time they will comfort you. You can't forget him, maybe it is better to remember him MORE, to get out all your photos of him and cry over them, maybe make a photo collage on the computer and put it up in your room so you have the memories to smile at. He gave you so much and you will feel good if you remember that. Maybe you and your mum can cry together and share your memories of him with a special meal or drink or some other event, a bit like a wake? He was your friend, but you still have him inside you. Suexxx
That was a really sad post to see and read, I'm so sorry Zoe. At least all the maybes and what-ifs and perhapses are over now and you're not waiting for something to happen. Here anytime you need to chat xx
sending you a hug, I know how youre feeling. remember the good and funny times, put his photos around you when youre ready. hes at rainbow bridge now, no more pain and happy again.
maybe make a keep sake box? I have a shoe box with my dogs collars and leads in,thier ID tags etc. I couldn't part with them xx
I always bawl my eyes out - feel really sorry for the vets - when one of my cats goes.
Try to remember him as he was when he was young - that is probably going to be quite difficult - rather than remembering him as he has been for the last couple of weeks.
I think that losing a pet - particularly one who has been your best companion - is really hard because you are also losing a part of you.
Don't try to suppress the pain because it will only come back to haunt you later - it is part of the grieving process.
When you feel up to it - post and tell us about all the good times you had together - and the funny things he did - good that there is some of that above.
Sending you big hugs, it is natural to feel upset when you loose a pet, I had to have my cat put down earlier in the year and cried for weeks. I know how you are feeling hun, especially about not wanting to be in the house. Give yourself time to grieve, you had your cat for a long time, they become part of the family.
It sounds like your cat was very special and had a lovely life with you. You did the right thing by having him put down, it would have been unfair to see him suffer. Try to remember the happy times, I have a photo of my elsie on my kitchen window sill snd have her ashes in a cask by the front door so I can say hello to her everyday.
I am so pleased that you stayed with him at the end. I did with our 18 year old cat and his passing was just so peaceful that it kind of helped a bit. You will be grieving for him now, something quite natural, and it will take time to heal. But, remember all the good times and what a wonderful 18 years he had with you. Thinking of you at this sad time, Julie xx {{{HUGS}}}
Dear Zoe, I was so sorry to hear your pet has died. Please gain comfort from knowing he would be so grateful for the love and attention you gave him during his life. I am sure he couldn't have had a better 'mum'. When I had two Siamese cats and they had to be put to sleep in a very close time I was devastated, they were like little furry people and the house seemed empty without them. My advice would be to get another pet soon, perhaps a couple of kittens, they won't be the same as your cat who passed away but it really helped me to get new pets. I also put my favourite photograph of my pets in a really nice frame when I felt I could cope with seeing it all the time and looked at it remembering how many happy times we had. I think even someone who does not suffer with depression would find the death of a pet very hard to deal with. Thinking of you. xx
18 years is a great innings for a cat, amazing in fact. But they are like another person in your household and non pet-owners probably don't get that. I miss my last three dogs, one was only put to sleep a couple of months ago and it was so hard but I determined not to lose it this time and try to carry on. The Rainbow Bridge video is heart-breaking and if you want to absolutely let it all out then I'd recommend it
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