Unfortunately, since I attempted suicide, aged 14 (clinical depression obviously) - the only way I have felt at all comfortable is by "self-medicating" or, more honestly, substance misuse, over a lot of years, BUT and this is a big big BUT for me - I have not even considered self destruction in years
N.B. there is a link at the end of the poem for narcotics anonymous - na.org
Thanks for sharing your thoughts s.h.Rose - it's quite bad 'pouring it all out' and getting no response whatsoever, as happened when I posted this on my personal blog. As for finding a way to avoid 'using hits', I really don't want sympathy, but I have a small gathering next week - involving two people to assist in my need for advocacy to deal with my GP surgery.
I have not broken the law for quite a few years, I use "Stims" and get annoyed when I have to use the term "legal high" to describe the only way I have available to avoid becoming suicidally depressed.
I have given up though, or given in. I cannot be sectioned on this path which has a very definite terminal ending, as long as I can explain what I am doing in a reasonably rational way. No matter how unreasonably dangerous or irrational my course of action is, that's my understanding of The Mental Health Act.
</b>I am now withholding consent for all medical intervention, except pain or anxiety relief. <\b>The findings of The Ombudsman's Office in my complaint against The NHS, will quite possibly be put before The Scottish Parliament, hopefully preventing anyone else suffering the same neglect, discrimination and malpractice. Each time I have tried to find legal advice, I've felt sickened by all the insensitive (thus) "Get rich quick if you have been injured" type adverts. I'm not interested in getting money out of The NHS, which has spent vast sums keeping me alive during my life.
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