Really bad time for me. Between my anger and poor people skills Ive alienated many people. No one I know has patience for me anymore. I have to take klonopin just to function and ambien just to sleep.
This was not how I thought Id be ending last years of my life. I have to be careful what i write. The moderators warned me extreme statements would get me banned from site.
I will say one thing if I was to suddenly drop dead. I wouldnt be too upset.
I feel your pain ,I'm currently going through similar but with out meds, please stay strong (your stronger than you know just by the fact that your here, best wishes steve
Hello. I know, I'm a stranger, yet just wanted to tell you, that I have patience for you. You suffer, I suffer, we all do, hence I have plenty of time to talk and listen to you. You matter.With respect.
Thank you. Ive turned alot of people off. I dont deal well with others.
I even less, if you may allow and forgive my audacity. I don't have friends, never have had.It seems so odd to see all these people with friends, more than one friend, and just don't understand how they achieve it. Not that it matters especially. People have always disappointed me, just constantly using, abusing, mistreating, rinsing and repeating. Always cold and foreign. It seems as some people, including yours truly, broadcast, let me say it this way, some sort of waves, or feromones like the bees, or some Hz, or whatever, that turn people away from me, often in the first few minutes of our conversation. Which already gave up on doing, it's exhausting, pointless, got so tired, sometimes even hostile from constant rejection. But got used to. Thank you for responding, I respect it, understand and appreciate it.Peace ☮️
Just looking for a friend that understands. 
Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder: I am proof that there is hope. 
just looking for connection - very lonesome and depressed.
Laying down on the job of being a better me.
