Im 64. I need to be able to help myself, but I feel overwhelmed.No energy I need more help than people are willing or capable of giving.
I feel Im on the edge of a cliff.
Ive read stories of older adults falling thru the cracks. Im afraid Im going to be one of them.
Theres no where to go in nyc but the street. Old people are being victimized here and no one cares. Im loosing my mind drowning and there is no life preserver.
Im very tired. Its like i dont have the energy to save myself.
Have you contacted your Council on Aging? And 64 is still young.
I feel your pain and know how awful you must feel. I have only in the last 3 months emerged from a very dark depression that plagued me for a year. I know how desperate it feels to be on the cliff and want to just let go and fall because it takes so much more to pull back from the edge. But crawl back if you must. I understand if you don't believe me, but you deserve to have the sun shine on your face and there may be some little thing that you encounter today or tomorrow that makes the pain just a little less unbearable. And then from that better moment, who knows what else may materialize that makes you feel just a bit stronger. Hold on Lonepain, not from fear, but with hope, and know that many of us are holding you in love and support.
i m sorry to hear that i thot US is like paradise. if u want i can give u emotional support
Dont believe everything you hear Mohammad.
There is something different going on with older population now. A lot of them are displaced. I too am older. Not the same level of respect that older people were given in the past. It's not easy being an older person today. I hear you and get it. 💜
Sorry for very late response. Im not well these days. Had big blow up with brother. My illness disturbs him.My city no place to grow old in i have made many errors in judgement. That have made my life harder.
I dont post more because nothing much has changed inside of me.
I feel your pain. I feel like I'm on a cliff as well, or drowning and not having the strength anymore to stay above water.
Do you have any support around you? Like family, friends, therapist, psychiatrist?
Now you have at least this community. I just joined this like 5 minutes ago and already found a mate who is a mess as well 😞. Guess we can try to be here for one another.
Love
Im a nervous wreck. Can barely think. I not aging well. The older I get the more nervous i get.
Can you explain what , aging well, means to you?Do you have certain expectations of who want or should age?
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I understand what you are saying about getting nervous. I am a registered nurse and have worked in this capacity for 33 years and my confidence you think would be better but it is not. I lived in NJ for 5 years and being from Texas realized how hard it would be to survive in NYC from the few times I visited. It seems like it is a hard city for people to really care for one another or to even survive there but I did survive in NJ by the Grace of God. Leaning on God was the only way I could do it.
I pray every morning i get up i hate this city. I stuck here. If i end up unhoused I think im going to run upstate to live in woods.
I also recommend mindfulness, guided meditation, think on just the moment, a smell, what do you hear, a sensory walk
It is a balance- life
A routine is very important
Make one, contact a local support group
We have NAMI where I live
There are meetings and guidance to help you little by little
It’s small steps first and then bigger ones
Deep breathing, yoga, calming mind exercises
Aromatherapy
Anything to bring calmness to your day/mind
Housing has been my obsession last 6 yrs. I havnt been living. They anxiety has overwhelmed me. I wish I could go into nursing home .Im 64 cant deal with pressure anymore. Life in NYC too hard.
I can only imagine
I live in a suburb so I don’t live in a high urban area like NYC
It prob is too much to take for your personality
It would be for me, I feel better in nature, it brings me peace and. Alms me
Per haps getting out of the city should be on your plan of things to do differently- to get better
I know it’s hard to think differently and make changes but it’s worth it in the long run
Reach out to a local agency for help, join an in person support group
Start with very small changes and treat yourself when you achieve a small goal
You are worthy and deserve it
I know I just feel so sad for all those who have taken their lives and the state of the modern crap whole world and the sadness and the pains and the never ending emptiness that we don't know how to correct in our society, sad I feel n tired of repetitions and just nothing I want happens nothing changes I pray for ..... And it's too easy scapegoat on others just sit in a coffin pre coffin days that is what it's like
I agree with most of what you said. I read news this morning . Less said about what we already know. I dont know what to post any more. I say the same things nothing changes. I have to run my own life and not doing a good job of it.
Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder: I am proof that there is hope. 
Struggling with MDD for decades
bad morning
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