Disclosing MDD

[Doubledog]

I have had MDD since my 20’s and I’m 55 now. I have been ok on meds for many years at a time. I’m now coming off one med and moving to another and having really bad side effects. I am still making my way through work. A colleague today asked if she was upsetting me and she seemed upset so I shared my MDD with her confidentially and shared that I’m in a med transition. The first thing she said was I wasn’t sure what was happening but thought it might have been something medical with you or your husband, implying this was not. I am so tired of having depression but yet no one takes it seriously and yet it’s a major disease. It makes me never want to share this with anyone as there is no respect for what people with depression go through. I am going off the last dose of Duloxotine and the moods are really all over. I’m hopeful this new med bumped up will help but it takes so long to go through this transition. I’m partly angry that I always feel alone in this battle and today confirmed keeping it to myself is best.

[gajh]

Yes it is so hard that people do not understand. I am glad you are here sharing with people who do understand. You are not alone. I hope you get through this transition quickly.

[Doubledog in reply to gajh]

Thank you for replying!

[Raggedy-Ann]

hi, I feel you. I don't share with people. They say get some exercise, or change your diet. What could you possibly sad about?? Stop being so negative. I have nobody that understands in my family. Heck my therapist is useless. This site, group... we all get it. Changing meds is a bitch and yes you feel wrong for awhile but that will pass. It's a good time to do some good self care. We are here for you.

[Doubledog in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Thank you so much. It's so true. The articles kill me. I don't know if it's a part of depression but I buy into much of this until my therapist checks me. I think it's a lack of B viatmin or gluten. I get so obsessive about anything I read, I was convinced gluten was the answer and told my Psychiatrist how much it was helping me, he believed me too! I was in his office a month later when the gluten miracle failed. Maybe it all helps but it doesn't fix anything. I'm always looking for the one solution that doesn't seem to exist. Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone in this.😀

[Puppielove]

I feel sad that you opened up to someone and they just didn't get it. Depression is very hard to live with especially when it seems like its the only thing you've ever known. I am glad you are reaching out to this group, because we get it.

[Doubledog in reply to Puppielove]

Thank you so much. Puppies and Dogs are very good for depression, however, I will say that my new puppy of one year is causing me additional stress. I try to keep a sense of humor. He is constantly busy.

[Trainchaser]

People flee when you talk about mental illness . I agree with every word of your post. I fear if you isolate yourself your mental health would decline. If you ever want to chat I am a good listener. Wishing you the best. Rick

[Doubledog in reply to Trainchaser]

Thank you. That is amazing and I so appreciate your support. I made it to an exercise class today. Touch and go but some moments felt good. Others so bad and cried when I got back to my car.

[Trainchaser in reply to Doubledog]

Congratulations on your accomplishment. Be proud of what you did and don't be self critical for what you didn't. What's on your agenda today? I work to 7:30 then go home to move things in a couple of rooms. Have a friend putting new flooring in. Half on Saturday and half on Sunday. Rick

[Downinil]

You aren’t alone in this here.

[Doubledog]

😀 Thank you!

[Browny71]

I haven’t logged on for a while. I saw your post and thought I was blessed with my job. I have some good coworkers, I was off for 4 months and just returned a week ago. Im not doing too well, I just knew being home was not too good for me either so Im pushing myself. I only reach out to people who I feel comfortable telling them about my MDD. Also I know the withdrawals from some ssris are terrible. Hang in there.

[Doubledog in reply to Browny71]

Thanks so much. That is interesting on time off. I have had an md and therapist tell me I should take time off ie: months. I’m resisting because I worry about returning and just feeling the same or worse and I can’t quit. I am feeling a bit of hope as I feel the old med leaving and new one taking hold. We will see. Good to hear about your experience and so nice that have a job where others make you feel supported.

[Rv-av]

I understand that so much! I'm in the same situation. Every time i tell ppl about my depression they tell me they understand, but i feel that they don’t take it seriously. And it makes me soo mad. Like i'm not lying to them when i say i don't feel good, I just literally can’t get up from the bed. And some average everyday things for them sometimes feel impossible to do for me