People have a hard time accepting that sometimes things can be impossible to fix because that means admitting that we don't always have control. I don't think it's impossible for me to gain control over my life or mind again (in theory) but in reality I have no resources. I don't have family members I'm close to or friends I can trust. No coworkers, no neighbors my age, and no license or job or qualifications. I'm still stuck in my house. I've tried getting a psychiatrist because medication is the only way I've been able to function in the past but the psychiatrist's I've met this year have sucked. I've been on a waiting list since April and I haven't gotten a single call for a doctor who might be decent.
It's hard to do anything anymore. Especially with winter setting in I'm completely depleted. There hasn't been much support from the few people I know, I can't get a doctor, I cant enjoy tv. I was supposed to see a dentist today but I'm too scared to get in a Lyft and I see no purpose in caring for myself if I have no future. I'll never get a GED or a job or mental stability without any help professional or personal or otherwise.
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Hi CB...I'm sorry to hear you're struggling alone. When you say you're stuck in your house, are you not able to go for walks? Walks can help mental health as well as physical health. Also, diet can severely affect our mental health. Making sure your gut is balanced and receiving the fuel it needs to function is crucial...people don't realize how much anxiety and depression step from gut health. Once I started to eat better, my mental health improved, as well as my confidence. Just some food for thought (ha, pun intended!)
Are you nervous about being in vehicles? Or having strangers drive you? If you cannot get your GED or job, maybe you can find a hobby or interest to stimulate your mind...? Just thinking of ways to help. We are all here for support, but personally, I love receiving some helpful advice as well. Hope this is received well.
A walk isn't possible due to weather and my diet is sustainable for me. I don't have anyone who can drive me anywhere currently. I don't drive because other drivers make me nervous and I have no one in my life who is calm or mentally sharp enough to teach me. As for hobbies, I don't enjoy anything. I've lost interest in everything and don't have the energy.
Depression is a mental illness- illness- Meet with any pharmacist who can keep you on your meds for your illness. Like other people living with an illness they take medications to relieve their symptoms, we all have flare ups. If you want control, do everything you can to manage your depression, eat clean healthy food, try to keep your sleep regular, take your meds, go outside, exercise, do self care.
Where I live, a psychiatrist prescribes medicine. If you read my post, it's clear that I don't have availability to that. I know what depression is after 12 years of having it. I eat healthy food but calling it "clean" is a term that a lot of people with orthorexia use and I personally don't agree with. My sleep is regular, there are no meds to take, it's below freezing I won't be going outside, I simply have no energy for traditional exercise but I still get movement everyday and I do tons of self care. My depression is still here and I don't like that we use that list of things as if it's the cause or cure to how I'm feeling because it's not.
What kind of info or advice are you looking for here then? It doesn't seem that you're open to receiving. We're just trying to help. The list of things Raggedy-Ann listed are 100% directly linked to depression, so they ARE causes...and fixing them CAN cure them. Poor gut health = depression. Same with lack of exercise. Same with lack of sleep. Same with any chemical imbalance that is not treated properly with medication. What else can you do??
I made a post on help that you might want to look at. Sometimes people are open to help they just aren't open to the help you're offering. My doctor's have never once mentioned my gut health. I don't think that depression I've had since the age of 8 were caused by my gut health. Especially since my dad has mental issues as well and it's very well genetic. I think that offering these solutions to me right now are not beneficial as it's not something I could upkeep mainly due to my lack of mental energy and general energy. But because of my financial, transportation and weather right now as it is winter. There are no vegetables to buy and no money to buy the vegetables and not even a car or a license to drive the car or shoes to walk on the snow for two miles to get food. Respectfully.
That's all fine and understandable, but I was genuinely asking what sort of help you were looking for...be it advice or just having a place to share and vent. It didn't seem that anything was helping, so I was looking for guidance. I agree you can take advice or leave it, that's the freedom of being a human.
I do need to say that doctors have been ignoring gut health. It's an issue we've been fighting in my profession for years because of big pharma. Thankfully, the knowledge is spreading. MOST of the medications prescribed to Americans could be eliminated with a change in diet. That's why so many Americans are struggling with depression, anxiety, and ADHD...and why millennials will die 20 years early than our grandparents. Our food is poison and it's contributing to the mental health crisis this country is seeing. And yes, your gut health matters when you're a child, and can be completely messed up early on. I work in this field and have lots of experience with this, that's why I was offering this sort of advice. I thought maybe it could help since it's obvious that your doctor isn't.
I don't want to argue either. I just would've preferred people were speaking to me like a person instead of putting what they think is best first. You may know about gut health but you don't know about me. If you were primarily trying to be helpful, I don't think you'd put your desire to share your knowledge above helping in a logical way. I said in the beginning that people have a hard time admitting when someone can't do something. I cannot do anything right now.
You don't need a psyc doctor to prescribe medication. Any nurse practitioner can help you. Medication is one of the three legs of treatment, including therapy and physical health. It's difficult to forward without all three. Take it in small steps. First get medication, then therapy, then work on your physical fitness. Best wishes. You WILL get better.
I have been seeing nurse practitioners, I just call it psychiatrists because it's easier I guess. The first tried to scare me out of suicidal ideation by describing what would happen to my liver in great detail and then giving me a medication after I told her that it gave me a potential allergic reaction. The next told me that the previous one could've sent me into anaphylaxis but laughed like a mean girl at one of my symptoms and gave me a free sample of antipsychotics that are pretty new instead of any tried and true medicines. Since then I have not found a single psychiatric anything in a 75 mile radius.
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