Hi all,
I've been feeling very ill for a long time, I am 21 years old but feel like I'm 80. I've seen countless doctors and I've been pushed around, ignored and patronised.
Finally, I got the diagnosis of endometriosis. Before that I had an ANA blood test done, for weeks after all was silent. I began chasing the results and was told by various secretaries, and GP's that it was negative, all tests were negative and to stop worrying about it. Then last week, I get a letter asking me to see my GP, the ANA test was positive. After being told it was negative for weeks I finally let it sink in, and let go of worrying about Lupus, I started to think maybe the GP's were right, I was overreacting.
The positive result threw me, as I had just been diagnosed with Endo the week before and was trying to wrap my head around this disease, possible infertility and an impending surgery. I've found this quite difficult to deal with, especially since an ANA test is not a definite diagnosis, meaning more doctors and tests and questions.
I guess I'm just mad that I've been treated like I am overreacting and weak and should just over everything, like it doesn't exist. I've been treated like this pain is part of being a woman and this exhaustion isn't Lupus or anything else, its me just being weak. All GP's have done is make me feel very insignificant and small and weak. Now results are in they've started listening to me, but I just hate them all and never want to be in a doctors room again. I feel like if I was a man my pain would be validated, but instead I am patronised, made to feel insignificant, small and weak and not in control of my own body. I've been told to 'get a hobby' and try 'light recreation'.
Now I've found out that my rheumatologist referral that was made on October 30th has actually not been made at all, so I thought I was over a month into the 8 week waiting period, to find I'm not even on the system.
I don't really know what I am asking or why I am writing this. My degree is suffering,, I'm getting very behind and I've just lost my job. They say the role isn't working but I really think it's because I've been ill so much this summer. I'm just very overwhelmed and feel out of control and very small.
What are the next steps after a positive ANA test? xx