Well after going through surgery, chemo, radiotherapy and some immunotherapy have been told nothing is working so now not under a consultant anymore just a Macmillian nurse from Christchurch. To say |I am gutted is an understatement as there seems nothing more I can do. |Only one more chemo drug could be used but only a 10% chance of luck and would have very bad side affects and as I have been very bad since end of Oct they do not want to put me through it. So here I am, cant write as feelings gone in fingers, to tired to even get dressed some days and watching my poor new love of 7 yrs waiting on me hand and foot. Trying Hemp oil now, who knows. Praying every day for lots more time.