Sick of being sick

[Daylightsaving]

After my recent kidney infection a couple of weeks ago, I was feeling better than I had in a while yesterday but have woken up today with severe dizziness which is so frustrating. I had prolonged dizziness after having Covid in 2020 but have been free of it for quite a while so its annoying that it's turned up again.

[Dolphin14 Moderator]

Daylightsaving

I'm so sorry this is happening. Does the dizziness respond to anything? My first thought would be maybe you are dehydrated?

So many people have long Covid and it really seems to upset the body

Take it slow today. So you think you should call your doctor?

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[Daylightsaving in reply to Dolphin14]

Thanks Dolphin, I don't think I'm dehydrated, I try to drink as much as I can for my kidney stones. Long Covid is a really tricky thing, mine has lots of symptoms that have, over time, reduced due to the changes I've made to accommodate it. I know stress makes it worse so it could be that. I've noticed my tinnitus is louder today, a signal that I've overstepped my energy envelope. I was just journalling and noticed how much I was still doing even though I was trying to rest when I had my kidney infection, so it's probably not surprising. I've made an appointment with my optician just to check my eyes are OK but will see how things are tomorrow. Hopefully a bit better 💕

[Dolphin14 Moderator in reply to Daylightsaving]

I'm always glad to hear people are doing their medical checks to be on the safer side

Yes, let's hope tomorrow is a better day

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[Daylightsaving]

I shouldn't really be surprised, I visited my parents at the weekend, which is always challenging as they are the l reason for my C-PTSD. I try to limit their impact on me but it's impossible. They are both highly manipulative and abusive but are elderly with failing health. I have strategies to protect myself from the worst of it, usually but this weekend, my sister, who I grew up protecting decided she was going to call them both out and stand up to our Father, a classic coercive controller. We had both received a noxious voicemail from our Mother, probably with the encouragement of our Father but I had not yet listened to it. Yet again I felt I needed to protect her though she is now a very capable woman in her own right so I can see now that that feeling is not relevant to the present. I stayed longer than I should have and got sucked into his labarynth yet again after a long time of being out of it but I think the residual impact is showing up today (I kept really busy yesterday). I usually try to limit the time focusing on them because my time is precious and I have much I want to do with it. You may be wondering why I see them at all, I certainly am.

[Dolphin14 Moderator in reply to Daylightsaving]

I understand why you see them. I visited my mother over the years on occasion.

I hadn't started my recovery at that point so I wasn't aware I had work to do. What I did recognize was how hurtful she was. I went with the knowledge she would be negative and hurtful but I had learned not to listen. I expected nothing positive and that's what I got.

I was with her when she passed. I have no regrets.

You had a lot to deal with being there and we know it takes a toll on our physical health.

Do whatever makes you feel good today

[Daylightsaving in reply to Dolphin14]

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[Dolphin14 Moderator in reply to Daylightsaving]

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