Past Events

[LifeSucks1]

When I was in school I embarrassed myself quite a bit. People often talked behind my back which included close friends and this hurt me. Since those years at school I am haunted every night and every day by the things I have done and the people who betrayed me.

[Nathalie99 Partner]

Hi,

Welcome to the community.

I am very sorry that you have been through abuse and it's terrible that you are haunted by the events.

It is very hard when others do something really terrible that hurts years later. I am very sorry that you have been betrayed as this is a terrible feeling...

[SavingGrace Administrator]

Hi LifeSucks1. I sympathise with having been bullied by ‘friends’ and also doing embarrassing things. The later sometimes can be let go off by just acknowledging that we were young and often foolish from being full of life and at giddying heights.

The later is harder to forgive though both I guess engender a sense of betrayal of trust. One from others, one of our good selves.

It’s taken me a long time to forget bullying at university.

I made sure to build inner strength and get to where I wanted to be, though all along slowly working on rebuilding inner courage and moving forward.

I think now, I either can see how those bullies were spiteful and may never learn though one may learn to know what it means to be a good person. Or I can see enough of the good in me to stay strong and remain focused enough xxx

I would have hated to have been bullied at school. I wasn’t the popular kid but I got by ok.

You’d think by university age, people would have learnt/matured. Seems no.

Wishing you well and sending hugs, blessings

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Maybe it will help you to know that you are not alone. I had severe mental health problems and everybody who could have helped me simply wasn't able to. I didn't make it easy for them but it was entirely mishandled and so many people were hurt. So many lives were ruined. I'm one of the only people who made it through without their entire life falling apart and I'm also the one person who hurt others the most. I struggle with the shame and guilt every day. Wondering if my past will ever catch up with me, wondering if I can ever really build a future.

If you need to talk I'm here.