My Truth

[Survivor1687]

I have learned people are going to hurt you no matter where you go, and I must decide what's worth hurting and fighting for. I have been fighting my entire life trying to find my voice, trying to find where 'I fit in' and somewhere I feel heard and feel accepted. I'm the outcast. Everywhere. I am not like everyone or anyone else and I'm trying to embrace the FACT that this is OKAY! I don't want to be like ANYONE else. After years of trying to fit in with certain or different crowds & trying to fit the idea of what kind of person I needed to be in order to have friends or feel accepted, loved, cared for, heard. This is me. This is the real me! I'm not looking for approval anymore. Ive spent 35 years doing that. I'm looking for genuine, friendship, support, love and understanding. As badly as I need support right now and want friends and people who understand. I am me. If someone truly and genuinly cares and are in my life for the right reasons with good intentions then I shouldn't have these feelings of shame or feel unable to be myself without fearing for my life in order to feel accepted or to feel supported or have friendships. My intentions coming to this forum are to have support and give support. Being able to feel safe doing so makes a huge difference. I'm here trying to do that coming from a place of love and understanding. I want peace, I would like to believe that is what most of the people here want also, along with support and good intention. Today has been very hard. I am still thankful for this community, I am still grateful that I have another day to work on trying to be a better person. I'm trying my hardest not to fall apart and lose hope in something Ive been fighting for my whole life. Thank you for hearing me. For reading my words. I'm not giving up. 💜

[AussieNeil Moderator]

The admins, moderators, volunteers and regular contributors to this community endeavour to keep this community a safe place, conducive to healing. Welcome to our forum!

Neil

[Dolphin14 Moderator]

Please don't lose hope. We are going to have good and bad days. I try to wipe the slate clean each morning when I meditate and exercise. Thoughts may still circulate but by using these two coping skills I have a better outlook.

As AussieNeil stated this is a safe place. We listen to and hear each other. The support in this community is outstanding.

I'm glad you wrote your thoughts down and reached out.

❤️🐬

[Nathalie99 Partner]

I think we are all unique and this uniqueness is something to be treasured, something beautiful.

I am very sorry you had a very tough day but I'm so very encouraged by what you said and I can relate to not giving up.

Triggers can suddenly trip us when something reminds of a traumatic situation from the past.

You have amazing strength and you are a survivor. I'm glad you connected with this strength.

Thank you for your kindness and support 💜

[designguy]

Great attitude and post, it reminds me of myself sometimes. I had c-ptsd and social anxiety form childhood trauma and bullying and was hyper-vigilant a lot of the time and at times have difficulty feeling safe. Working with a trauma therapist who uses emdr has helped.

I sincerely wish you the best and hope you will keep learning more about yourself and are able to continue cultivating the inner strength and resilience that is rightfully yours. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and know you are safe here.

[Oliveart11]

Thank you for writing your honest feelings and allowing me to read. I feel the same way as you. I am going on 55 years old in two months. Time goes so fast, and I am still struggling to find my safe place. I have always yearned for friendships that are genuine. I don't want to judge others or be subjected to fake people. I really enjoy this support group. Thank you again.