*******POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNINGS*********
*******(family abuse, physical abuse, suicide mentions*******
For as long as I can remember, I've had to be the bigger person from my father. Whenever he was mad at me and would hit me or something along those lines, I would have to apologize to him. Not only because my dad NEVER apologizes, but to "keep the peace within the family", or however my mother said it. And that mind set is still stuck, so even though I'm really upset with my dad I feel like I need to reach out to him to wish him a 'happy fathers day'. Even though he's always made fathers day a really horrible 'holiday' for me, (long story short he used the day as an excuse for some bad things) I feel like its my duty or something.
I'm upset at my dad because ever since middle school, I've struggled with suicide attempts, and he's a large factor for the first several attempts and my self harm tendencies. I shared a picture on Facebook (showed in post). He commented on my post (which he never does, already making this kinda weird) "yay for you". No emoji, or anything else. Just "yay for you". Knowing my dad, I KNOW this is sarcasm. He doesn't mean it in a kind or comforting way, he never does.
Due to that and the way we interacted last time I saw him (him indirectly threatening my gf and I) I decided not to take the 3 hour drive (6 hours both ways) to go see him and my other family members today.
I know it could just be my mindset, or I could be over reacting about all of this. But I wanted some opinions. Should I be the bigger person and text him "happy fathers day"? Or just not say anything.
Thank you for reading