First off, I was diagnosed with C-PTSD from childhood mental abuse somewhat physical, and abandonment. I also found out that I have ADHD to boot. I have a therapist, and a psychiatrist - we've been trying to figure my medication. One in particular (Paxil) has made the last few weeks even harder. I had an adverse reaction (basically passing out), I'm weaning off of it but I feel the withdrawal effects. Brain zaps, and mood swings. So I know I'm moodier than usual. My husband knows this but still...
I can't help but notice that my husband looks at me differently, speaks to me differently. I feel that I am annoying or a problem to be solved now. He won't talk to me about normal/random things. We were always best friends first. But I feel us sliding apart.
My natural response is to not be around someone who is tense because of me. I feel lonelier next to him than when he's busy and not home.
I don't know what to do at this point, I've told him and he admitted he doesn't want to talk to me because he's afraid of how I will "feel". I thought we resolved that. But today, it was just awful and I stayed home because I didn't feel ok around him. I felt sad and irritated. He's irritated with me. I can't help but feel what others are feeling especially my husband.
I'll be feeling good and he seems to take it away somehow. I don't quite understand how. Like he reminds me that I'm not always feeling ok and asks why do I seem better today? Then I have to think about it, I'll tell him why. Then he says "he didn't want a whole story."
He's a GOOD husband, I want to make that abundantly clear. But something's changed between us. Can anyone relate?