Over PTSD

[Kerryneedstosmile]

there you are my old illness. Tricking me into thinking I could function normally and you were gone!

How much work do I have to do for you to go away once and for all and allow me to function like a normal human being.

I am so tired !

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I hear you Kerry exactly what I am going through today it hits you when you least expect it 😟 I walked the dogs even though I was feeling rough plugged my music in and took off it did help but now I am so tired I'm having some me time! You will get there Hun little steps! Thinking of you 🌻Xx

[peacefulandcalm Encourager]

ditto. I get it. A day of rest for both maybe.

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Hugs 😊Xx

[Equis-Canine Volunteer]

Yup. It's like the ocean- sometimes calm sometimes stormy. For me I'm just thankful that now I usually stay in the life raft!

[nessa3]

I get that

[GeminiDancer Major Contributor]

It can be so frustrating and seem to take so long, I know!

I used to feel worse when it would snap back on me after a short reprieve and I'd often beat myself up worse for "falling back" again but now I realize what a triumph the reprieve itself was! I realize I made real progress no matter how small or fleeting...it still means progress!

Even though it feels like a cruel joke sometimes and sucks to feel like you've taken 2 steps back, you did indeed make forward progress that is helping to retrain your brain. Try to congratulate and recognize yourself for that🙂.

[Kerryneedstosmile in reply to GeminiDancer]

Thank you, but I am so damn tired all the time. I feel so low and can't work properly. I love my job, what I do but it's so high pressure and there are times when I just want to sleep. I'm embarrassed by it , the fog and it turns me inside out.

I just want to be normal and have energy I once had

[GeminiDancer Major Contributor in reply to Kerryneedstosmile]

Thanks for sharing so honestly. I walk around feeling the same way virtually everyday. I have a high pressure career that stresses me out and constantly exhausts me too. Of all the horrible symptoms, this constant battle for energy and wanting so bad to feel normal "like everyone else" is my most constant and frustrating one. This community is the only thing that has truly helped me see it as a symptom of PTSD vs a fundamental personal defect.

[Nathalie99 Partner]

I have periods like that. I was functioning and got much better for 2 months and then new stressful situations happened and the symptoms got worse again.

I was wondering the same thing and asked my therapist about it. She said that it gets easier with time, processing things, better coping skills and generally it gets better with practice. It's comforting and I take her word for it.

How much work, depends on a lot of factors and is very individual, there is no telling.

Previously I got out of ptsd and had no more symptoms for a few years (until new trauma) so I can only hope that it will happen again.