Hi all,I haven't written in a long time or even had time to log in. But I do see the first few lines of posts on the daily digest-I know I'm not alone! I feel for all of you/us out there who continue to suffer for so long.......it sucks, its tough,It's really hard. At times it terrifying at other times JUST overwhelming! We need hugs love kindness compassion and hope!
My phsycologist is trying to get me to see a specialist phsyciatist who will look at my pain map from the view of an upregulated central nervous system. She says that this effect on the central nervous system could have started as a child living in terror. And with a multi model approach of a team of phsycologist physiotherapist (and I think, dreaded medication)and other allied health professionals can help reduce my pain and physical disabilities.
I am terrified! And yes triggered! Like she says discussing the upregulated nervous system has upregulated me! (Like most of us with PTSD I guess) she stresses though that by me it's not post my husband keeps it alive and active unfortunately but won't take any responsibility for his behaviour! (For those of you wondering why I'm still married? I have beautiful children grandchildren a nice shelter and food that I'd loose if I wasn't!)
Until now I've spent more than 15 years trying to convince others and get medical help for my physical issues-I feel helpless and stupid for wasting all that time and money! But how can anyone say that living with half a cerubellum wouldn't give me these symptoms??? I'm so confused!Yet not convinced of her theory Either!
I know Michelle speaks of the effect of PTSD on the brain-is this the same concept? I don't know how to find any info on the internet that is spacific enough to me-I guess I don't have time or patience......
If anyone has any info reassurance help or ideas please let me know