After the fight or flight, a deep depression usually comes. Do a lot of people experience this? Seems every time. Also of course it is the holiday.
I feel pretty deeply depressed right now, worried. Wish I had more support at my home right now, friends, boyfriend. I have to go out, and don't feel like it, to visit friends and be with people.
It is Sunday and I know I will just nurture myself best I can.
Got an email from my father, huge trigger, asking about xmas present. He does it every year. Did not actually read the email, since I was so triggered anyway, but all this plus everything in life is getting to me and not sure how to deal with it the best way.