sorry if I did not respond to anyone in a few posts a bit ago. Triggered becomes so hard to function except the basics. I am sure folks understand.
Authority. The huge trigger. Scary authority. Mean authority. The huge trigger. Or when you need something from authority. And especially when the authority is acting unconsciously, meanly, cruelly, 'abusively', unkindly, taking advantage of their position, and authority and not treating it with respect and others with respect like they should. Terrifying for me and I am pretty sure, it is a very common trigger for PTSD people, especially when it had its roots in childhood.
Trying to go through this experience, turning to friends, God, my mom. Keep faith. Keep fighting. Somehow stand up for myself and believe in myself, God, others, and stay positive, be assertive, get my needs met and be stable, ok, not scared out of my mind (literally! as happens with dissociation) I know people on here get it completely.
The core belief that we are not good enough. Or bad somehow. Or must be bad if people treated or treat us as bad. To change that core belief, the work it so hard and painful. Tired. I am going to get some coloring books again, for adults and I think this soothes the brain when triggered like knitting, but I was not good at knitting and it was hard, so prefer to try coloring again. As an indoor activity I can do when triggered.