short bio of Redguard aka Lora

[Redguard]

I have been diagnosed with PTSD after 35 years with more purely psychiatric not neurological diseases. I have so much on my plate: survivor of Sexual violence, having to face defendant in preliminary hearing, must move--apt lease not renewed-'one day after court date I get an eviction notice for 20 days, now about 10 days till court date, having only 2 stabilized incomes using new city contact for legal and transportation support, having something numb and painful in legs and back--MALOCHONDRITIS, non-diabetic peripheral neuropathy, 11 years ago poor surgery for stenosis, almost total separation from family. I go to an older than me (I will be 63 come April 2016) neurologist/psychiatrist for brief visit once every 3 or 4 weeks.

However this PTSD diagnosis has given me more internal strength, "allowance" to use my traditional Jewish belief system, keep neater and cleaner about myself and my interior house (apt.), find little things to enjoy, including allowing myself, although still "disabled" a feeling of accomplishment. I have started indoors gardening, thanks to a post I read here!!! Heal Our PTSD!!!!